Saturday, April 29, 2006

hold me
thrill me
kiss me

i think its 10:39 AM now

Friday, April 28, 2006

I was a full FOURTY FIVE minutes early for my paper today.
But when i went to the carpark adjacent to the hall,
it wasn't just full, it was bumper-to-bumper.
Got stuck in there for 15 mins
Gave up and went to Raffles hall to find.

Almost got down the car to quarrel with this bloody bitch!!

I'm really surprised at how polite i was ok.

it was like 5 mins before my paper
and desperation's an understatement.
so i circled round and round and you know how nus is full construction sites!?
So i tried my luck and turn into one of the sites
and came right up the Campus Security building

and i saw very little cars
so i was like "Great! I'm so smart!"
soon after patting myself on the back
3 security guards came rushing towards me
"No you can't park there! This lot is reserved!"
I tried putting on my high-pitched and act cute voice
"But i'm very late sir! all the carparks are full!"

"Your wheel will get clamped. You cannot park here! Go to raffles hall."
"Its full there too! Please you gotta let me park here. I'm extremely late!"
So after back and forthing for a while,
i totally gave up.

so i said,
"I don't care. I don't have a choice. Go ahead and clamp my car"

And they really did clamp my car.
and about ten others.

so shitty right! i shall go write a complain letter now......

i think its 10:38 PM now

I haven't changed my phone's wallpaper for the longest time.
Each picture usually has an average wall life for a couple of days.
I haven't change this particular one for a month now.

Maybe that's why i couldnt go back to that place because it meant facing all those memories.

And if i could run away for as long as possible,
why wouldn't i?

you're the picture behind my threadmill, remember?

WHAT AM I DOING ONLINE.

i think its 10:22 AM now

Thank you for drawing the sphere and the cylinder on my helpshit for me today.
I couldn't have possibly attempted such high forms of art.

That's it.

I'm not listening to the irrational part of my brain anymore.

you know how people always say everything happens for a reason?

These people are usually women.

i think its 12:24 AM now

Thursday, April 27, 2006

the one person i wanted to see isn't even going.

i am overtly infatuated with Mr Big.
he's tall, he's rich, he's charming
and the way he says "absofuckinglutely"?

gosh, will you hear me? I sound like a pre-pubescent teen.

1630 tml come faster!!

i think its 11:27 AM now

Wednesday, April 26, 2006

baby hold me.

i think its 8:33 PM now

In love relationships, there's a fine line between pleasure and pain.
In fact, it's a common belief that a relationship without pain is a relationship not worth having.
To some, pain implies growth.
But how do we know when the growing pains stop and the pain-pains take over?
Are we masochists or optimists, if we continue to walk that fine line?

i think its 8:27 PM now

There is only one person who can make me laugh till i cry at 9 in the morning.

I shall go meet her now.

i think its 9:29 AM now

Honey, you don't play hard to get with someone who's hard to get.

i think its 9:04 AM now

There is no feeling in this world worse than being hopelessly in love and being misunderstood.

try both.

i think its 8:53 AM now

Saturday, April 22, 2006

you know what's the worst thing about having someone dissect your very existence?

it's knowing damn well they're right.

i feel like a frog.

i have like, a million shirts with rock bands names on it.
Beatles, Rolling Stones, K.I.S.S, Doors.
I want one with Westlife on it!
or maybe Hanson!! yes, i'm still stuck in 1999.

"Even if she cheated five times over, I still love her.
Love isn't the easiest thing to cut off."
-Nick Lachey

yeah, i'd do it all over again.
In a heartbeat.

i think its 8:09 PM now

Friday, April 21, 2006

i belong in SMU.

not this bloody fucking shithole.

you know last night i dreamt that my physics textbook was so HUGE that it crushed me to death?!

what nonsense.

i need:
A Keratase hair treatment.
my hair is looking so much like hay these days that i'm wondering why the horses hasn't come and nibble on them yet.

Samsung P850.

the kind of fear that grips you by the breath

i think its 8:09 PM now

Thursday, April 20, 2006

So i called the Guess outlet at Paragon today to reserve my white leather bag, and guess what song was blaring in the background?!

the familiar "don't look no farther, baby i'm back here!"

Haha! I first heard it back in June last year,
when i was in the Abercrombie&Fitch store in New York..
God bless the day i downloaded that song.

I flipped to a page in my ee book today,
i saw the words "EXCITED", "SHAFT", and "SPEED" highlighted in green.
and the words "Kim is STOUT" in bright orange.
and i'm thinking,
man, i really am gonna miss those idiotic boys. :(

i think its 6:31 PM now

Wednesday, April 19, 2006

Got this from someone's blog.. And it goes that you get one point for everything you did, and if you scored less than 60 points, you're an angel.. So, here's mine. Bold ones are the ones that caused me a point less from being an angel.

i scored a 69.
Oh, what a number!

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room on the opposite sex
8) watch porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs

11) taken painkillers
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wish someone to die
20) seen someone die

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of ice cream all by yourself.
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) recieved a ticket
28) been a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
33) had a spring break in Florida
34) sniffed anything
35) wore black nail polish
36) wore armbands
37) wore t-shirts with band names
38) listened to rap
39) own a 50 cent CD

40) dressed gothic
41) dressed prep
42) dressed punk
43) dressed grunge
44) stole something
45) been too drunk to remember anything
46) blacked out
47) fainted
48) had a crush on your neighbour
49) had someone sneak into your room
50) snuck into someone else's room

51) had a crush on someone of the same sex
52) been to a concert
53) dry humped someone
54) been called a slut
55) called someone a slut
56) installed speakers in your car
57) broke a mirror
58) showered at someone of the opposite's sex house
59) brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
60) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favourite rapper

61) seen an R rated movie in theaters
62) cruised the mall
63) skipped school
64) had an eating disorder
65) had an injury
66) gone to court
67) walked out of a resturant without paying
68) caught someone on fire
69) lied about your age

70) owned an apartment
71) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
72) cheated with someone
73) got in trouble with the police
74) talked to a stranger
75) hugged a stanger
76) kissed a stanger
77) rode in the car with a stanger
78) been sexually harassed
79) been verbally harassed

80) met face to face with someone you met online
81) stayed online for 12 hours straight
82) been to a fair
83) been called a bad influence
84) cursed
85) prank called someone
86) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
87) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
88) watched TV for 12 hours straight
89) cheated on a test
90) cheated on homework

91) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
92) been pushed into a pool
93) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years younger than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt

i think its 6:26 PM now

Tuesday, April 18, 2006

Coffee Beanie was playing backstreet boys' first CD today. woot! although when 50 cent came on, rach and i started to plug in our ipods..

i did plenty of work today, thus i'm awfully proud of myself.
Right now, i'm finding nice and pretty things to buy online for me.

Retail therapy does not come cheap. But it definitely does beat a meeting with my shrink.

Can you tell me how a perfect love goes wrong?

i'm very comfortable with the pain.

what is about unattainable people that i find so darn attractive ?

i think its 7:03 PM now

Monday, April 17, 2006

it's just the way you feel about someone.

He or She may not be extremely drop-dead gorgeous,
might not be very outstanding,
does not have your desired height,
that smokin' body,
fabulous hair and clothes,
nice teeth.

He or She might not even have the kind of pretty brown eyes you only see in puppies.
All those shallow, physical quantities that people admire someone from afar.

but then when that person walks into the room,
the rest of the world seems to slowly fade away
and you find yourself wondering when your next breath might come
because they just took your breath away.

All those things i read when i was 13 in Love Stories were true.

It's just the way you feel about someone.

i think its 10:43 AM now

Sunday, April 16, 2006

This's to the best weekend ever.

if i could ask God just one question,
why aren't you here with me, tonight?

A $1000 cheque was sent to my house yesterday.
What a rude surprise.
Now i have no idea what to do with it!

Asked mom about it, and she says its some trust fund thing.
And i'm getting the endowments now.
Does that mean i'm gonna get a $1000 bucks each month until i die!?

Europe summer? or NewYork heatwave.

i think its 10:06 PM now

Wednesday, April 12, 2006

i'm pretty content about my fish-bowl kinda life.
go ahead, nose about.

it's scary sometimes how sanity's so fragile.

it's been 6 years.. The pain still goes on?

You bet.

i think its 5:40 PM now

Tuesday, April 11, 2006

You deserve more than i could ever give.
Let someone else do that honour,
because even though sometimes i wish you wouldn't find her,
i just want you to be happy.

Let go of all that hurt, all the fear, all those heart-shattering disappointments.
Recognize it,
but step away from it.
Step away.

I'm begging you to.


I know there'll definitely be some things you'll never forgive me for;
i don't blame you.
I won't forgive myself either.
But i hope one day we'll both reach that happy place.
That happy place where there's no jealousy, no regrets and no hard feelings.

Just two people genuinely happy for one another.

In my defense, i just couldn't sit around and wait for happiness to decide to fall on my lap.
I had to seek it,
as elusive and blinding as it was,
i had to come armed with hope and as little cynicism as i could.
and momentarily, i knew i found it.

That's why i believe you could, too.

Because i saw love in its greatest form.

i think its 9:03 AM now

Saturday, April 08, 2006

Say you're about to die,

And you could only tell ONE person that you love him (or her).

Who would it be?

i think its 6:14 PM now

Friday, April 07, 2006

What if that were true?

What if in the time that we spent together
i felt more alive than i have in the past 20 years of my life?

What difference would it make?

In this fucking ugly world, that kind of love does not exist.

i think its 11:05 PM now

Thursday, April 06, 2006

I'll never get over you getting over me.

my uncle asked me today, "why do you always wear until so nice to school? all the people there wear shorts and slippers right?"

okay, you should know that i'm exposed to at least half a thousand live, testosterone-driven male species a day.

the pressure to look good is IMMENSE.

the number of balls is inversely proportional to the total amount of time needed for a guy to ask a girl out. :D

can hardly wait for this sunday.
can hardly wait.

i think its 9:00 PM now

We flew yesterday.

In the car, going at 120 along the beach.
i swear i didn't see the hump.

*** looked over with wide-eyed wonderment,
"WE FLEW!!!"

that's exactly how i feel when i'm with you.

society should be less obsessed with clamouring for perfectionism.

and by society, i mean me.

i think its 8:44 AM now

Wednesday, April 05, 2006

if i listen to shang hen one more time,
i think i'm gonna cry.

i think its 12:22 PM now

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

*Cannot touch
Cannot hold
Cannot be together
Cannot love
Cannot kiss
Cannot have each other

Must be strong, and we must let go
Can not say what our hearts must know

How can i not love you?
What do i tell my heart?
When do i not want you,
here in my arms?

How does one waltz away,
From all of the memories..
How can i not miss you,
when you are gone?

i think its 8:12 PM now

Just got my kitson package from the US of A. Go Team Aniston!
Show the girl some love and support, people.

everyone should just stop fucking with other people's head.

i think its 7:34 PM now

Monday, April 03, 2006

the most wonderfully magical thing has happened.
okay, so i log on to my physics online assignment,
and to my absolute delight, i have found that ALL the answers were keyed in,
and not only that, when i clicked "Submit",
i had a brilliant, very, very rare 8/8.

12 April. Ritz Carlton. with all great thanks to the beauty of the UOB platinum card, we got invited to the fashion event of the year! confetti!

fashion is my passion.
Really. Nothing else measures up.

oh well, maybe except sexy, insinuating sms-es. That, i love.
and the play of words.

"How's the wit?"
"Really, really dim."

i think its 8:20 PM now

i am jonesing for some serious banana pancakes.

it is impossible for anyone to have what he wants, if after it is had, it is no longer wanting.

i think its 7:05 PM now

the heart has its own logic.

i think its 6:35 PM now

Saturday, April 01, 2006

i need to do something about my hair PRONTO.
i woke up this morning and i looked like a freaking lion.

maybe that's why everyone said i'm scary and intimidating.
i walk around school looking like a lion!!

am i really very scary?
actually, i am a very very very friendly and docile banana......

beneath this icy exterior lies the heart of a 14-year-old monkey.

*was i that one secret kiss,
that you couldn't chance
you just couldn't miss?

i think its 8:36 AM now