Sunday, January 29, 2006
if i met you while i was still married to somebody else, i would have to get divorced.That's how much sense we make.
i think its 12:35 AM now
Wednesday, January 25, 2006
i stared at the picture for the longest time - that image seared permanently on my retinas.i finally closed the window and then i knew just what i had to do.
i think its 10:18 AM now
Tuesday, January 24, 2006
bad; still not okay.my iPod died on me at Redhill. freaking Redhill! i had to endure like 100 stops without my music.
school is getting really interesting :D
Victoria should tell me her secret.
those arms are to die for!
anyway, Ker asked me if i'm chinese today. and then i acted coy (yes, that is possible) and threw back a "what do you think?"
and then he said, "are you part indian?"
i came this close to fainting and crying at the same time.
i think its 9:50 PM now
Monday, January 23, 2006
sometimes people lie to make themselves feel better.sometimes people lie to fool other people that they're better.
and then sometimes people lie because it is easier than explaining the truth to the person you can't love anymore.
Where do you come off?
the zit at my left temple hairline is threatening to take over the world.
okay, i admit. i stage a total freakout everytime i have a bump on my face, even if its just a tiny one, not visible to the naked eye. I.JUST.DON'T.LIKE.IT.
i actually think that the avocado milkshake at Techno Edge, (that is the engineering canteen) is rather good.
on the rare occasion that i do come to school on the rare occasion that i do eat at the canteen.
shopping in singapore just got worse.
anyway, i have a nasty bruise on my buttcheek, a little to the left of my butt crack. how do you even bruise that area!?
i think its 9:26 PM now
Sunday, January 22, 2006
i'm not allowed to adore you the way you know i really wanti think its 10:49 PM now
Thursday, January 19, 2006
you guys' blogs are depressing me! as if i need to be further depressed (?), in recent view of my fucked up timetable and even more fucked up hair.congrats to the mother, who got a whooping 7.6 month bonus this year.
all the flying, all the last minute in-the-middle-of-quality-mother-and-daughter-time meetings, all the endless reports, all the nights away from home, all the annoying people you had to deal with, all the phonecalls deep into the night, 24/7/52 workyear, all the herculean efforts put into finding a different outfit for every meeting (raiding my wardrobe in the process - an entirely different story), all the stress, -
It has all been worth it, hasn't it?
mummy i know you read my blog. admit it already! i am so outrageously proud of you sometimes.
okay, enough of that nonsense. i'm getting way too chummy for my own good.
i'm waiting for that final moment
you'll say the words i can't say..
i think its 11:16 PM now
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
our ad would look smth like this:"ALDEA BLANCA. 5 flr townhse, 4+1 rm F'hold, pool, carpeted rms, renovated, convenient & private. $1.4M negotiable! alot of mosquitos due to dense forest behind."
okay, so i added the last bit. Pls remind me why we're selling it again.
i sat down for a full 4 hours today, with the maids and aunties, no one from my generation came, just me, schmearing egg yellows onto the pineapple tarts, decorating it with cheese, chatting freely. oh wow, i am such a suckup.
i skipped breakfast and lunch and ate 18 tarts in one sitting at 5pm. there goes my diet.
how is the heart and the mind connected? because my passageway is completely congested.
i think its 10:27 PM now
Tuesday, January 17, 2006
an article i read today in Elle got me all choked up. misty-eyed, even. how pathetic?!it wasn't because of what you did - but the things it didn't occur you to do.
So far, so good. i have Yet to skip a single lecture this week. But then again, it's only day 2. i can only be hopeful.
a corny(read:cheesey) scene that played out like some '60s black-and-white movie today at tanah merah mrt got me smiling the entire dewy night.
met with our realtor today and my mom is dead serious about buying East Meadows Condo(beside tm mrt). i hope she buys Parbury so that we'll be neighbours with max and ken and ryan!!
i love my goddaughter. very, very much.
i think its 10:54 PM now
which, suits me pretty well these days. boys are so out of fashion.
i got bitten by a million sandflies! those bitches.
Just because i get off at Dover doesn't necessarily mean i'm from singapore polytechnic. yes, part of my heart belongs there, BUT that's not the point. the point is...
i'm sleepy..! good night.
i think its 12:59 AM now
Sunday, January 15, 2006
if time is a teacher, it hasn't taught me well.the kind of gaping hole that could only stem from being hopelessly in love with you
Q: How do you make five pounds of fat look good?
A: Give it a nipple.
LOL!
If you could prevent One song from being obliterated from the face of the earth, which one would it be?
i think its 4:03 PM now
Thursday, January 12, 2006
sleep eluded me all night.gave up eventually, grabbed my hoodie and car keys
drove aimlessly around for a while, with jay chou's tortured voice blasting on the stereo
before i finally found myself at the beach
at that carpark.
the rain had stopped, the sky cleared crystal enough to see the stars
it must have been a good ten songs before i left
just sitting down there, bedhair, tattered cchs OAC shirt and shorts
staring far ahead at almost nothing
-
how in good lord i managed to blow a hundred bucks ($99.36 to be exact) on files and pens at kinokuniya, i have absolutely no idea.
and i wasn't even high and delirious.
i think its 3:27 AM now
Tuesday, January 10, 2006
Who do you love ? :)
i think its 11:17 PM now
let the one you hold be the one you want.
"but sometimes, the one you want isn't the one you hold.."
i never got the chance to tell you how devastatingly true i think that is.
yeowch.
i think its 10:45 PM now
you're playing an entirely different game. :)
i am da-baoing EG1413 this semester. This spells a potentially damaging and life-altering timetable. FUCK!
my roommate's the head of the Buddhism Society.
AMITHABA
i think its 1:18 AM now
then don't say you never lied
i think its 12:05 AM now
Monday, January 09, 2006
i've seen 2 rainbows side-by-side. have you ?1. [wallet] means nothing when you're cash-less
2. [hairbrush] is entwined with broken, blonde hair
3. [toothbrush] runs by electricty
4. [jewelry worn daily] anything that matches
5. [pillow cover] is stained with saliva (ulergh)
6. [blanket] is a duvet
7. [coffee cup] black, turns grey when hot
8. [sunglasses] ck!
9. [underwear] should be good enough to eat
10. [cologne / perfume] Hermes
11. [CD in stereo right now] Chicago
12. [tattoos] huge pen line across my upper arm counted?
13. [piercings] three. none of which i love because they aren't at the right places.
14. [what you are wearing now] flannel PJs. whaaat, it's cold!
15. [in my mouth] bitter aftertaste of my cough syrup
16. [in my head] whether i should go for supper now???
17. [wishing] is something i do often
18. [after this] SUPPER!! heeeheee
19. [fetishes] A-plenty, esp if it has gotta do with the ankles
20. [if you could get away with it and murder
anyone, who and for what] right now, i have 2 motherfuckers in mind
21. [person you wish you could see right now?] those 2 motherfuckers
22. [is next to you] err, my shadow?
23. [some of your favorite movies] Runaway bride, Notting Hill. i love Julia Roberts, even though she's blind to marry danny the cameraman
24. [something you're looking forward to] life at 50, by my seafront home
25. [the last thing you ate] M&S vienna biscuits with milo!
26. [something that you are deathly afraid of] cockroaches
27. [do you like candles] sexy
28. [do you like incense] smelly
29. [do you like the taste of blood] LOVES IT
30. [do you believe in love] entirely
31. [do you believe in soul mates] completely
32. [do you believe in love at first sight] no.
33. [can you eat with chopsticks] i can eat with anything
34. [what are some of your favorite candies] coka cola bottles, Hi-Chew, a staple in my life
35. [what's something that you wish people would
understand] how judging and labelling makes you a dumbfuck
happy hari raya lynna! :)
i think its 10:00 PM now
thank you for skipping your shit as well.
Have you looked outside? it looks like the opening sequence from The Day After Tomorrow.
yep, i'm pining for someone. in that Carrie-pins-for-Mr-Big kinda way. sucks shit.
i vaguely remember running down orchard road without my shoes on. and while we're on the subject of vaguely, i would like to apologise to anyone i terrorized that night, esp ting, whom i couldn't stop insisting she touch my face cuz it's oh so damn smooth (righttt)
Mike Delfino is attached. i'm mourning my misfortune
i should really pay attention to my mother when she asks me, in all her wide-eyed innocence, what i think of what she's wearing to her meeting, which is every so bloody often on the night before she leaves. currently, she has stolen my armani jeans to match MY new velvet blazer, underneath MY dkny sweater.
maybe i should just ignore her.
i have been thinking alot about the future lately.
i think its 8:51 PM now
Sunday, January 08, 2006
if i didn't know you betteri would have thought you'd be better at lying
oh, the deceit.
torn and tormented, i will emerge colder. it's gonna give me all the courage i will need this year. right now, i'm just trying to focus on vibrating at a more peaceful frequency; it really shouldn't be a problem.
or would it?
And you stood at the door
with your hands on my waist
and you kissed me like you meant it
And i know that you meant it,
that you meant it, that you meant it..
i think its 11:32 PM now
kicking, laughing, running, squealing in the bantering rain
garnering the stares of bamboozled passer-bys
no complications, no excess baggage
a record number of clothes bought from Guess (21)
non-sale, tyvm.
no longer (as) discontent.
i carry this dirty little secret
around with me like a ton of concrete
i think its 11:30 PM now
Saturday, January 07, 2006
until you know where you belong,you'll dream of what you never had
i really don't see what the fuss is all about
i think its 11:31 AM now
Thursday, January 05, 2006
at the rate i'm self-medicating, i can become a pharmacist very soon.when i'm bored, i
a) spend hours in my mom's toilet going through all the beauty products she has, like how many moisturizers and anti-wrinkle arsenals can one have?!
b) re-read all the past InStyle magazines
c) rearrange my entire shoe cupboard
since i have accomplished the abovementioned, i have no choice but to do option d: shopping.
and i have to sleep early. i have just a long and tiring and activity-filled day ahead of me. i need all the energy i can get to.. do nothing.
oh my god the urge to drink coke today was unbearable
i think its 12:14 AM now
Wednesday, January 04, 2006
i don't want to wake up one morning with the sudden urge to blow my brains out.that being said, i almost the forgot the absolute delight of waking up and eating my cereal while watching the newest episode of the O.C. and while STILL having my holidays. :)
i'm meeting with the dean this friday. i have to find an outfit that fits, one that doesn't bring the blonde hair out, and doesn't scream 'I HATE SCHOOL'.
what's your dream ?
every minute, every second of E-V-E-R-Y day.
i have squirmed and reasoned my way out of leaving for Hongkong this saturday and it totally worked! i don't think my mom could beat 'i don't wanna skip the first day of school'. so, tuesday it is. next tuesday, i will fly there myself.
i'll be waiting for that day.
and when that day comes,
we'll know what to do.
i think its 10:43 PM now
Tuesday, January 03, 2006
in the car
the love of my life
in our room!
okay, loch ness. spot what my mother is doing. caught in the act! haha
i think its 9:30 PM now
the mother has brought me to every possible doctor, a second opinion, a third, a fourth.. if its lung infection, she has got to start accepting that soon because well, we're considering going for the thing that sucks all the phelgm out. elergh.
after this, i'll have to brace myself for a full body check-up. i can't stop eating potatoe chips to save my life.
ok pls pls pls let the peeling on my face end soon, it has been a bloody nightmare and i'm still waiting for it to peel so that it'll be smooth after that but right now, uh-uh, no. it's rougher than sandpaper.
you don't slay insults on people you know had nothing to do with anything. if insulting me and putting me down makes you feel superior, take a swig at it. but don't FUCKING insult my friends for fuck's sake.
something inside me snapped when you said that. fuck, what gives you the frickin right? yes, i am a bitch and you have every right to feel bitter but please honey, don't, DON'T give lousy reasons when you have nothing to fall back on. you might hate me now, but i know i'll hate myself if i continued living that lie.
very good now, everyone will know how childish you can get.
i don't have to prove anything; i can just show them your msgs.
enemy? oh god, graduate from pre-school already.
i think its 12:42 AM now
Monday, January 02, 2006
There's nothing in this world that could ever dowhat the touch of your hand can do
i think its 2:32 PM now
Sunday, January 01, 2006
i'm rendered virtually incapable of thinking about anything elsehelp me figure you figure me out.
that night was nothing short of awesome. i've given up fighting against the universe. it's letting me win this time
*a moment like this
some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this
some people search forever
for that one special kiss
oh i can't believe it's happening to me..
i think its 11:34 PM now
Kim