Saturday, December 31, 2005

The last day of any year always compulses me to sum up my year and write a few resolutions.

this year's no different.

Looking back on how 2005 begun, i'm surprised it's ending this way. granted, it had been a pretty rollercoaster year but somehow, one way or another, it became more subdued towards its end.

There were some things i wish i didn't do or say, and some things i wish i did and said, but if time has it that i should go back, i wouldn't change a thing. because those are the lessons that i learnt. those are the lessons that bellow out to me on the occasions that i do not know what to do.

2005 changed my life. i know people tend to say that every yr but for me, it really did. irrevocably. there were a few bad patches here and there; some good patches too. and most of the time i try not to remind myself of the lows. i'm just really glad i've lived past that because i don't wanna have to go through it again.

thank you for being there during those times. i could never forget that and i won't, despite you feeling otherwise.

2005's the year of meeting new people. on the temp jobs, in nyc, lynette, NUS. some friendships were lost, some were fostered.. and one, became something more.

there had only been one person on my mind throughout this entire year and will remain that way for a long time to come.

-

2005's the year i travelled the most.
germany, austria, switzerland. hongkong guangzhou tokyo new york, washington d.c beijing bangkok and most recently, scotland.

all year i've followed my head. in 2006 i will follow my heart.

have a good one.


i think its 10:06 AM now

Friday, December 30, 2005

somewhere along the way, while holding your hand
while watching you sleep
the answer came to me very easily

i'd rather have the one who holds my heart..


i think its 11:57 PM now

Tuesday, December 27, 2005

how you're holding my heart in your trembling hands


i think its 9:20 AM now

Monday, December 26, 2005

all my love i'll be sending

the birthday was perfect. it couldn't have been better. the place, the setting, the DJ, the friends, the family, the Mom. thank you everyone for coming! although chunying did most of the thanking voluntarily, still, friends brought friends brought friends brought friends. okay, i know i'm exaggerating but there really wasn't enough places to sit.

i was clonking around trying to entertain everybody but it's so bloody ardous when you're wearing 5-inch stilletos.

had the most presents thus far, but i'm far more interested in the cards. (yeah right!, you say) seriously, this stone cold of a heart literally melted when i read some of the cards.. aww?

i'll forgive you, hippo, for not bringing my present. and my card. and everything that you're supposed to bring to a birthday party. :)

i wore a green bra and red girlboxers today. like how festive am i?!?

Had been a crazy mad weekend, with the most fascinating secret santa sesh EVER. kudos to ruth for the huge amounts of work put in. we had a ball and giggled our stomach's flat. went to Honey bee's xmas service right before the party, and i have to say, the pastor gave a rather entertaining sermon. the xmas eve party was fantabulous too, i mean, which one isn't?

it's honestly quite bewildering how december flew by this quick. i wonder where i'll be in a mere 2 months time. okay, no. happy thoughts, happy thoughts.

caught Narnia today and yes, i'll admit that i fell asleep. i mean, this is the girl who couldn't sleep even in the most comforting of beds!

anyhow, just got back from raffles tc. major bowling session today. and here i am, after a trillion pratas with sugar, thinking about what i'm not supposed to be thinking about.....

breakfast tomorrow!!!

i have behaved badly.


i think its 3:21 AM now

Thursday, December 22, 2005

CHIJ
CHIJ
You scream for your school at any opportunity and
for some strange reason you love your school to
no end. You wear your belt so low that ACS
boys' pants would be considered high (yeah.
oh.. my..god)


Wad girl's school should you be from?
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i think its 11:08 PM now

i'll see your heart and raise you mine


i think its 11:02 PM now

so the dreaded results will be out tomorrow. i shudder to even think about it. i'm contemplating:

i mean, who am i kidding ? on the occasions that i do actually attend those lessons, i don't quite understand jack squat.

is it really tomorrow ?

hello to another thursday night,

well, only tomorrow's no ordinary friday, of course.

after one too many fast food and just plain sitting on my ass, i am left with a supersize me. let's hope i will wake up tomorrow with all the fat miraculously zapped out by the God of Anti-Fats and may i have rock hard abs forever and evermoreee


i think its 10:28 PM now

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

you're so close but still a world away


i think its 10:43 PM now

I have learnt to lie without blinking my eyes.

it's my favourite time of the year - where the hell are you ?

but know what, it's all good. i have been kept in a predominantly hectic state, no thanks to the birthday and xmas preparations and having maxine over for 4 nights straight. it's no joke patting her to sleep every bloody night and have my hand slip off her butt only to have her pull it back.

very suddenly, i can't wait to get the party over and done with.

my DJ looks like a dork.

the only thing that keeps me going is the fact that i'll be able to see the zoo people this friday. you guys are sorely missed.

this year, christmas means 11 days of many gifts, followed by one day of many, many gifts.

secret santa has become a yearly tradition with my family. although when ken was pestered as to who his kid was, he came up with:
"He or She has a wife."

WTF! i almost died laughing.

now that i'm driving all the time, i really cannot imagine my life on the public transport. i know i know -hits self.

i just heard from fabian that the exam results are coming out. fuck. i'm not gonna go open them until after xmas. it will definitely ruin my mood


i think its 8:08 PM now

Sunday, December 18, 2005

Try as they may
they can never define
what's been said between your heart and mine..


i think its 2:08 AM now

Saturday, December 17, 2005

Let's just say i'm jet-lagged.

and let's just say that i spent 5 hours at colour bar yesterday getting the perfect shade for my hair. so it is now a myriad of blonde, yellow, gold etc. i look like a frickin beacon.

decembers.

DECEMBER BABY! DECEMBER! okay, i know it's already the 17th day into december but it's nearing christmas and you-know-what!

one more reason to rejoice:



i think its 3:45 AM now

Thursday, December 15, 2005

There. Right there.

That's love. I can't find anything else that will fit that description.

If anyone asks me if i love you, i won't have to ponder for a second. I won't have to stare at my shoes or give that faraway look and scrunch up my face.

I'll give a definitive yes; i'll shout it to the entire world if i could.


i think its 9:28 PM now

Friday, December 02, 2005

and you:

"Everybody needs a little time away,
I heard her say, "from each other."
"Even lover's need a holiday far away from each other."
Hold me now,
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry
I just want you to stay

After all that we've been through, I will make it up to you.
I promise to
And after all that's been said and done,
You're just a part of me I can't let go

Couldn't stand to be kept away
Just for the day from your body
Wouldn't wanna be swept away,
Far away from the one that I love
Hold me now,
I really wanna tell you I'm sorry
I just want you to know


i think its 7:48 PM now

there's nothing about your tears that i won't fix.

because you can wait and you can find, but where else would you find this?

we're so good together.

"everyday at 12, i want you to look at that watch and think of me touching you."

i said the words
i took the road
and found my way back to your heart

chicago's still the guru for old love songs. i'm so sad! i can't get to read socialitelife.com for the next 12 days!!! i swear i would definitely go for the officers' commissioning parade if i were here. i'm sorry :(

jan you have no idea how much i miss you. cuz for me, talking to you would be how walking is therapeutic to you. i've got so much to tell you; things that i know only you will understand. it's nice to know someone's always gonna back your ass.

okay, off i go. i'm starving myself for the airplane food. my maid is in a foul mood. i'm just believing it's me she'll be missing :D

6,8,12.


i think its 7:41 PM now

ONE more fucking reason why i hate the army - my beloved ah pek cannot come for my birthday party!!!! wtffffffff.


i think its 8:37 AM now

Kim