Tuesday, November 29, 2005

my fantastic night has been brilliantly ruined by some brain-dead bigot. but know what, i'll be the bigger person here. i'll take the high road. i shall eat whatever hokkien vulgarities i have got to say because i think i've already spewed enough of them on the road.

digital radio means no more wondering what song is currently playing on class 95!

meeting rach tml to plan our itinery. i am excited yes i am yes i am yes i am.

yesterday my mom called from hongkong and started rattling off animatedly about how great the boots she bought was and the army of winter stuffs and the trench coats.

and then she threw in the punch line, "i hope rasher can wear them."

Okay, so none for me. never mind because i just blew my money on a wool ax sweater.

anticipation can kill you.

i think its 10:04 PM now

Monday, November 28, 2005

why oh for godsakes why?? why am i waking up at 0511 every morning?

WHAT'S IN FOUR MORE DAYS !?!?!

i know i always say omission is lying. but when omission is protection, i'm not lying.

teach me your ability to love. because i am most amazed. teach me how you can find it in your heart to forgive and forget. because i am humbled.

you're the only thing i have that still makes sense.

when do you follow your heart, and when do you follow your mind ?

i think its 8:03 AM now

Saturday, November 26, 2005

What I'm dying to say, is that -

//i'm crazy for you
touch me once and you'll know it's true
i never wanted anyone like this
it's all brand new
you'll feel it in my kiss
i'm crazy for you

I crashed my mother's car. AGAIN. the bumper came off. so within a short span of 3 weeks, i have done more to the car than she had in the past year. actually, come to think of it, i have done alot of things these past 3 weeks.

Like, for example, watch crap shows such as Zathura. On a side note, Emily Rose creeped through my skin last night. i put away all the clocks in my room and even asked my maid to sleep on the same bed with me. and i try not to do that too much cuz, well, she doesn't smell half-way decent sometimes. talk about paranoia.

seems like believing is worth the wait.

19 minutes 23 seconds. that was how long.

i think its 5:53 AM now

Friday, November 25, 2005

the stars did explode.

they exploded all over the eastern sky that night.

i think its 8:00 AM now

Wednesday, November 23, 2005

it must be devastating to know that there's only one person you Have ever really loved your entire life.

and it will kill you when you find out that he or she's the only one you Can ever really love.

when did that horrible death occurred to me?

i think its 4:41 PM now

Tuesday, November 22, 2005

WILLIAM WEEKLEY III where did you go ?! stupid cowboy. get your texan ass dawwn 'ere!

okay, my ipod's fucked.

i think its 1:41 PM now

Monday, November 21, 2005

I can drive with one hand.

and the other..

someone's message today totally threw me off-balance. i worry so much about you, it crawls through my skin. Love triangles are sharp and pointy. They hurt people. Please don't let it hurt you too much.

we're M.F.E.O.

of all the questions we asked today, i hope we're choosing the same answers.

you know i can't fight it; the universe wouldn't allow me to.

i think its 8:46 PM now

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY !!! okay, i don't wanna say i love you too many times because that makes me shy. -flushes. anyway, you know what i know, so if you want your egyptian robes, you know what to do. 682259*

I want my UGG BOOTS. or mr loch NESS would chew my feet alive.

rnjy, you better wait for me to watch sky high.

Just a little something to remind me of newyork. Just a little Lyn-time. Ha.

i think its 1:46 AM now

Saturday, November 19, 2005

Don't tell me; i rather not know.

i think its 8:40 AM now

I don't care babe
Who's right or wrong
I just don't love you no more

i think its 8:29 AM now

Friday, November 18, 2005

i love my facial wash. it makes me skin feel so soft and smooth!!!! i'm going to buy more before i go scotland. which is in exactly 2 weeks time.

it certainly feels terrific, to drive home after my exam, and not cram at the bus stop waiting for the bloody internal shuttle bus that really must have been built for dwarfs. and then stop by at ecp's drive-thru macs and grab A PACK OF LARGE FRIES. :D

nothing else makes my day more than FRIES. it's an obsession that won't ever end. just like some others..

i'm really just trying to ignore your double entredes tonight. whatever that lies between the lines you're reciting to me, i'm pushing them away.

that game, i can play too.

i think its 10:37 PM now

Thursday, November 17, 2005

how is it different.

HOW HOW HOW

i think its 8:31 PM now

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

okay, so yesterday was crazy driving day.

well, i say that because after driving my mom to the airport, i went to suntec to get the uZap and then drove to NUS to pick lyn up and then drove to Holland V, which is a major feat in itself, to study. AND THEN, on the way home, we (or should i say i) totally got lost at ulu pandan. and as the name suggests, ULU !

and there was a fucking jam on the ecp at 8fuckingpm. and my bladder was banging itself against what, my urethra? i was going at 120.

and now i'm up after 4 hours of sleep.

but my parking is improving! heh.

i saw a toy hippo hanging in the car today and there was only ONE person it reminded me of :)

i think its 6:54 AM now

Monday, November 14, 2005

i won't ever name my ulcer or pimple or mole Rachel. Neo, if you wanna be specific.

because they'll stay and irritate me forever.

MUAHAHAHA

therefore, i'm calling the ultra colossal ulcer on my gums xiao ming.

xiao ming's small. xiao ming dies.

anyway...my mom's going away for the entire week!!! which means i'll be having the car to MYSELF for the whole week!! okay, i'm such a horrible daughter.

i just threw away 12 pairs of jeans. they're either
a)too tight
b)too lao tu
c)or just a convenient excuse to buy more jeans

i'm waking up at zero-six-hundred hours every morning just to workout. i wanna have max's perky ass

i think its 10:23 PM now

Sunday, November 13, 2005

it was a splendid weekend, really. crazy ass driving, i must say. picked lyn up today to meet Boobs for breakfast. he's damn funny. but lyn's funnier. lol, i miss that girl so much. :( she's always feeding me!

i'm going to cut down on my spending. my fucking von dutch pencilcase costs 52 fucking bucks. and it looks fucking fake.

and the fucking petrol is so fucking expensive. And don't get me started on the parking fees.

go to bed i must.

i'm crazy over that Beegee's song.

i'm hoping that my obsession over the L word dies out soon as do all my other obsessions.

i think its 11:09 PM now

If i kiss you like this
and if you whisper like that
it was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me

And when you touch me like this
and i hold you like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me..

i think its 10:54 PM now

Friday, November 11, 2005

today's an utterly boring study day.

It all came clear so suddenly
How close to you that i wanna be

i think its 11:58 PM now

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

you think i'm perfect when i actually ain't. and then when that perfect goes a little awry, you baulk.

i bought the L word season 1 and hid it in case i get hooked right before my exams, but now i can't find it. not in the panty drawer, not in the things-to-hide-from-everybody drawer.

off to crack that little bastard called Planetary Motion.

i think its 8:48 PM now

Monday, November 07, 2005

my iDog seems to love Bryan Adam songs. so here's one more for him:

Please forgive me, I know not what I do
Please forgive me i can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true
Please forgive me i cant stop loving you..

and it is totally unrelated that those two songs kept playing a like a broken record in my head.

i think its 10:13 PM now

Look into my eyes, you will see
What you mean to me
Search your heart - search your soul
And when you find me there you'll search no more
Don't tell me it's not worth tryin' for
You can't tell me it's not worth dyin' for
You know it's true
Everything I do, I do it for you

i think its 10:00 PM now

Sunday, November 06, 2005

if you saw you at a bar, would you ask you out ?

i came up with a theory today, in the midst of doing something really random, like applying body lotion. okay, so my theory (i call it the Theory of Coming-up-with-a-theory-about-love-while-doing-something-really random) basically states that : if you do not meet/have let slip/lost/never got the attention of The One, ever, someone who comes close to The One would suffice.

Derivative:

because second best, when it goes with you to infinity, tends to The One. the old saying "if you can't be with the one you love, love the one you're with" right?

Conclusion:

Do not come up with theories while applying body lotion in future.

B.S.

-

anyway, studied with rach and ray today. haha, so funny. i love studying with them! taking 6 capsules of fish body oils a day is tiresome. dayuum those fuckers are huge! but they're making my skin so incredibly smooth! :D

Week 13 and my last week of dreaded school. HOORAY! finally. my favourite time of the year is akan datang.

driving to the market is orgasmic. can you imagine driving to NUS ? WHOAA

and i'm sad. very upsad, if you will. i really wanted you to go with me.. rahhhh. it would be hell fun i know for sure. and i miss you ALOT.. i really do. i don't laugh much these days. and god knows i need the laughing. what a rain on my parade. :(

Sahara's happening on my lips. hurts like a mofo but blistex would be my oasis!

i think its 11:28 PM now

Friday, November 04, 2005

i passed my driving !!!!!!!!!!!! nah nah nah nah nah

even though i was raging with a fever and coughing at 10 coughs per minute, but yeah, i passed! without a glitch! though i did forget to signal when filtering left. -frowns. oh well. now that's over, mom says i can drive to the market tml!! :DDD

and she'll be out for the next few weeks!! which means... i get to drive the car!!!

when i called her she was like "KIM how how how!!! i want to pee but i hold it in for so long waiting for you to call me!!" haha fuck that's damn funny.

thank you for all your luck-wishes.

next thing on my list : ck sunglasses. and of course, for me to get well.

but before i forget.. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLACK BIRD !!!

i love for forever and for always! and i can't tell you how much i'm waiting for tml. its been so long, too long.

i think its 9:56 PM now

Thursday, November 03, 2005

i can recognize that smile from anywhere.

the words to say,
the road to take,
to find the way back to your heart.

if i wasn't such a fool,
right now i'd be holding you..

judgement day tml. my driving test! i better freaking pass.

aerosmith was right - even the sweetest dream would never do.

i think its 5:32 PM now

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

stick no emotions.

HAPPY DEEPAVALI MAX !!

kl was a blast. all 17 of us's great fun, although it gets tiring waiting around for everybody. but it was funny throughout. really, really funny. especially when my 2 uncles wanted to share a umbrella in the heavy rain.

i'm so afraid.. but i'm taking the risk this time.

i think its 10:50 PM now