Saturday, May 28, 2005

I'm old enough to know better, but i'm too young to care.

i think its 11:02 AM now

Friday, May 27, 2005

only human.

they say time is all it takes. time. unfortunately, time i do not have.

if wounds take time to heal, how long will scars take?

In 12 hours' time, my entire family will be in australia. max and ken has been such a staple in my life; it's gonna be a long 11 days. however.. on the plus side, i'm going away next saturday!! to Beijing. not exactly Fun Paradise, but might as well get in touch with my chinese roots eh? and i'll be going with my godbrother, godmother.. god-family, basically. we're tagging along with my mom on her business trip. i just wanna get out of this place.

it is getting WAY TOO HOT. i never walk out of my house without any sunblock. i'm getting white like bird shit.

20 mins before the last episode of the OC's second season gets downloaded. can hardly wait. i'm damn BORED

i think its 4:30 PM now

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

tell me we're fighting for a good reason.

just.. go to the fourth dimension and stay there. don't ever come back.

i think its 12:01 AM now

Monday, May 23, 2005

dear readers, for the relief of our illiterate little boy, Chua Tek Xin:

watched House of Wax again on friday. Amityville on Saturday. It is a very not nice show. ate pizza and pasta at Moonfish. But i did not like it. Because i want to eat pasta fresca. went to tampines mall on sunday. ate starbucks for lunch. i don't like the new frap light. i want my green tea. met the other two couples (which explains why i HAVE to write like this) and we ate at Indochine. Have been wanting to eat there for a very long time already. but the food is not very nice. i do not like it. went chinablack. it was boring. but the cab ride back was very exciting. what a nice weekend.

i think its 11:09 PM now

Wednesday, May 18, 2005

I'm not afraid to die. I've been dying a little bit each day since you walked out of my life.

i think its 10:39 PM now

you've grounded me in ways that i never thought possible. you brought me back down to earth when i was flying so high.

i don't party so much anymore
i don't drink anymore (not that much anyway)
i like to stay at home just talking to you

those wild party days are over. although i swear you love to club much more than me lah!!

i want to be your first and your last.

strangely enough, when you told me about your dreams, my own dream started to unfold, and it looked very much like yours.

to hell with my cynicism. i finally know how it feels like to fall in love with your best friend.

i think its 12:58 PM now

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

it would have been the ninth consecutive day i've been to town this week if i had gone today.

shopping with jan and geraldine yesterday. oh please let me bring you guys to drink the yummy soup! it is really yummy.

and rach? hello. i know you're bored at work. can you feel my essence around iclp? ask jie to stop playing popcap. i'm not as bimbo as janice right! :D

went to Hard Rock to eat on saturday with the two Rs. pool after that. Shopping on sunday as usual. bought another rl polo. absolutely adore it. my mom and i are crazy about ralph lauren polo shirts now.

i think i have enough clothes to fill an entire "too-expensive-to-be-seen-by-the-mother" wardrobe. it should be sealed with retina scans and fingerprint identifications. okay, i have been reading too much of dan brown.

saw sharon au at the dkny cafe. she's soooo skinny! would someone please pass her a cheeseburger?

and pass me those gluten-free, low-fat, wheat bread. :

i really need a new fragrance. maybe i should just rub haniku all over me.

FINALLY bought the usb cable. i love samsung! okay, not samsung. but i love my phone! uploaded many mp3s so that when YOU call me, Ai Ni can play. wheee. totally hilarious when you suggested uploading the paris hilton sex video so we you can enjoy it wherever we you go. wtf lah. HAHA

booked tickets to watch Star Wars with ken and max tomorrow. YEAHHH! :))))

but i still wanna watch amityville horror.

i think its 9:34 PM now

Monday, May 16, 2005

i don't wanna wait anymore.

i dont i dont i dont.

would you know what i'm talking about?

it was one of the best weekends. the kind of weekends that i would cry about when i think of it in australia. i don't know.

i dont i dont i dont.

cause if you know what love is, you'll never let it end.

i think its 8:06 PM now

Thursday, May 12, 2005

I have formerly arrived at a bitter conclusion: life is fairly unfair.

i have said alot of things, among other things; however, this hits home more than anything. you get some, you lose some. right now, i would rather lose some of those i got, and get some of those i lost.

my heart is thundering and i just might know why.

i've realized that i've become a, to put it nicely, pretty calmed up person. i'm dark, not literally, but in the figurative terms. nobody ever knows what i'm really thinking when i'm thinking what i'm thinking. i might be all yoo-hoo and smiling on the outside, but you have no idea the things that get tossed about in my head. it's an extremely complex piece of anatomy.

don't fuck with it, really. :)

anyway, i'll be joining yoga and PILATTE (that's how you pronounce it i swear) classes and the whole gym package with jan and geraldine! unlimited classes. be prepared to witness a leaner, sexier me. HAHA okay just kidding. i am already lean and sexy

before i conclude, BIRDY: I GIVE YOU SOME LOVE OKAY? :)

i think its 11:16 PM now

don't you wish your girlfriend was hot like me?
don't you wish your girlfriend was a freak like me?
don't cha, don't cha
don't you wish your girlfriend was raw like me?
don't you wish your girlfriend was fun like me?
don't cha, don't cha

:))

i think its 12:36 PM now

Wednesday, May 11, 2005

watched Interpreter AGAIN today. JAN come on! watch Amityville Horror with us :DDD

i miss europe very suddenly. looking through the photos and videos, it had to be one of the best times of my life. where else do you get to experience subzero temperatures? where else can you see 6 inches of snow? where else can you see the sun escaping into its enclove at 4fuckingpm? my skin was FLAWLESS. i hate the weather here. it's making my hair frizzy and my nose cranky.

breakouts should be left to the period just before my period.

i still remember sitting out alone on a snow-covered bench, parked beside the frozen lake, and the only colour i could see was white; i sat there for what seemed like hours, just admiring God's masterpiece. the only thing i could hear was the audible wheezing of the wind and my own heartbeat. it was rather incredible.

i pray Ken does well for his history and science. please please don't let all my efforts go to waste

i think its 11:41 PM now

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

you creep me out ASS-HO.

where the hell are we heading? dead-end road. concrete wall. what? it scares me to know that i'm putting so much effort into something that HAD a history but NO future.

whatever.

somehow you just keep drawing me to you like a moth to a flame.

i think its 11:41 PM now

Monday, May 09, 2005

i found my lover, my best friend, my inner neurotic self, my clumsy dorky other half, in YOU.

its mom's day! bought her a sexy calvin klein shirt. hope she likes it!! if not i'll wear it!! haha

House of Wax was fabulous really. OH MY GOD it is damn good. loved the part with paris hilton and the whole video thing. although half the time i was totally crushing somebody's hand.. lol

morpheus is great. i get to watch the latest episodes of the OC within 3 hours. the download speed is amazing! :D i'm a piracy advocate-r. i do not believe in buying CDs/DVDs. downloading is my religion.

SO. New York. June 19. ALL RIGHT!!! flying to Seattle first with my mom cuz she has some work to do. then off to Washington! one more month of bumming at home.. which i LOVE!

E! keeps me glued to the tv all day long. but i keep snacking on junk food. -frowns.

i think its 1:27 PM now

Thursday, May 05, 2005

If you ever had to stop whatever you're doing, run to a quiet corner to cry uncontrollably, the kind of sob that snatches your breath away, you know the person you're crying about will probably be the only person that will ever take your breath away that way.

-

I believe everyone has Two Great Loves.

brutal as that sounds, yeah, you only get two. If you had one, then you've only got one Great Love left. If you think you're done with Two, either get one of the two Great Loves back, or live by yourself for the rest of your life.

you know what i mean.

i think its 6:59 PM now

i cannot believe i actually cried watching mariah carey's 'We Belong Together' video. it was just so so sad.

i think its 12:36 PM now

Sunday, May 01, 2005

Like a clown,
I put on a show
Paint it real even if nobody knows
And im crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't i say,
The things i needed to say?
How could i let my angel get away?

I lie awake,
It's a quarter past 3
I'd scream at night as if i thought you'd hear me
Yeah my heart is calling you

How blue can i get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle its been torn all apart

A million words couldn't say
Just how i feel
A million years from now
You know i'll be loving you still*

i think its 2:33 PM now

samsung d500c doesn't live up to its hype afterall. i miss my motorola. i want it back.

my pictures. my mms. my messages.

-

Ever since i met you
You're the only love i've known
And i can't forget you
Though i must face it all alone..

i think its 12:29 PM now