Thursday, March 31, 2005

it had to be my best day at work.

they threw me a mini farewell lunch at silverkris lounge. TO KIM! yeah, they drowned in my vanity and didn't want to be saved. -rolls eyes. had the 1 dollar latte, which i'm very pleased about, because at starbucks it would have cost me $4 more. enjoyed the seaview and the vastness of the airport strip for the last time. and me wheeeeling like a mad cow, much to A-DRAIN's chagrin.

they crowded around me just before 5pm, and i was so swamped with work that i pointedly shoo-ed them away, before the grey bag and a huge card caught my eye. aww? i made a mental note not to cry, but went ahead and did it anyway.

did you see the sun dip today? the sky was painted the most brillant hue of pink.

thank you for not being there. it would have made leaving less easy.

i hated the part where i told my boss i would not be working there anymore. he was being so tolerant of me; my lateness, my absenses from work, my long lunch hours, my even longer coffee breaks and even my horsing around during work. he even asked me to go home and rest that day when he heard i was having a terrible headache. aiyah, i better be gone. his company can do with one less irresponsible employee

okay, enough of self-deprication.

every morning i'd be dashing into the building and the ahsao would always say the same thing, "you chi dao le huh?" HAHA

and all these while, robin has been watering my plants for me. yeah, i'm the evil-plant-master. i like to buy plants and leave them to die

okay goodnight. -waves. i have to wake up at 5am tml to catch my plane.

Mario - How Could You

i think its 8:57 PM now

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

oh its true, i'm all about you
i'm all about us.

i'm flying off on friday morning. so.. if you want me to buy anything.... SMS ME! :)

i know you were right
believing for so long..

i can't believe i'm gonna leave my job. i can reach at 930 and leave at 5 and nobody says anything. i'm pretty much left to myself in office. my boss doesn't check up on me at all. i can take hour long breaks and not have an excuse. and i get to see planes taking off everyday. the scenary, its beautiful.

ARGH. yeah, its so hard to say no to ruth. she ALWAYS gets what she wants.

i'll be working with her next week. plus side, it's in town! so. i can go shopping during lunch. and the pay's GREAT!

i'm gonna miss my colleagues.
so damn much. and the 4 coffee uncles who always shouts my name across the canteen.

tomorrow's my last day. i think we're going kris lounge to eat. sob

i think its 11:00 PM now

Monday, March 28, 2005

the 5 songs that tug at my heartstrings:

1. I Drive Myself Crazy - N'sync
2. All I Have To Give - Backstreet Boys
3. Nothing Compares to You - Sinead O'Connor
4. Baby Dont You Break My Heart Slow - Vonda Shepard
5. It Must Have Been Love - Roxette

oh wait. at a close 5,

6. Shang Hen - Ling Yi Lian

i think its 11:00 PM now

Sunday, March 27, 2005

okay today my uncle neo(rachel's dad) was damn funny. he was fetching us to watch The Eye 10 when he said: "i think i also want to watch a film show".

i looked over at rach. i went, HUH?? for a moment. i thought he meant those '60s open-air drive-ins.
then rach said, "a movie, you mean."

HAHAHA film show.. who says that anymore!?

so basically, i spent my weekends with the zoo people.
hippo, before i murder you and take your thick hippo hide and use it for my next fendi bag, please bring the rhino book BACK TO MAMA!

the rhino book belongs to rhino. just ask audrey, she will tell you.

anyway.. i had a 'friend request' on friendster.
OH MY FUCKEN COW it was maxine! please go read. pls pls pls. laughed my undies off i tell you.

my mom bought me shoes from hongkong!! i'm damn happy because it is damn vintage. and.. AX paragon has the snooty-est sales people. i remember them totally ignoring me when i was in my sch uniform. and then when i went and bought the jeans that day, they treated me so differently. i hope they remember my face and in future treat all shoppers nicely, with justice and equality, so as to achieve happiness, prosperity progress for our nation.

amen.

i have alot to say today, don't i.
because, I'M BORED OUTTA MY MIND! i totally dread going to work tomorrow. it's really a heap of burden every morning, to sit in front of my wardrobe and ruminate like crazy what to wear. very stressing. i think i cannot sleep tonight

i bought a shirt. from Gas. and i cut out the tag and left it on my bedside table. how could i be so careless to leave evidence lying around? my mother walked in and sat on my bed. she would be blind not to notice. her eyes are like radar; although it filters out everything else except dirt/biscuit crumbs/unnecessary magazines/stilletos and of course, price tags.

give me time okay? i will not let what happen be a testament to what's gonna happen. if there's gonna be somebody for me, i don't want it to be anyone else but you.

weekend coffee count: 11

i think its 11:22 PM now

what happens in the playground, stays in the playground.

i think its 1:04 AM now

i can't sit here and pretend that i'm okay when i'm not.

i'm sick and tired of being your relationship tutor.
it's not like i get paid.

you don't know the first thing about love

watched in good company with good company! haha

you know the chinese saying. the one what see mountain got fire still charge towards the mountain or something like that. -nods.

the thing with you.. its different. its not fixed by pancakes. and don't ask me how i feel about waffles

i think its 12:02 AM now

Saturday, March 26, 2005

okay should i drink orange juice now? or drink milk. help i'm in a dilemma

i'm realllllly tired and i'm talking to myself i should stop talking to myself because that's creepy and like my auntie(who whispers to herself)

lydea has a blog HAHAHAHAH

i would like to think of it as the kim-fluence.

i had the best time today. since WEEKS. we belong to the zoo! :) i wish we could hang out more often, get so sick of you guys, and then maybe i don't miss you all so much. aww?

i finally got my jeans. but now i'm very stressed. because my jeans are very loose. then tml i have to go back and change. or alter.

everytime i am stressed about something i cannot sleep. like last night. i was so stressed about the huge, unidentified bug in my room that i couldnt sleep the whole night

i am getting old and haggard and saggy

i just drank milk !

yay i'm lydea's birthday party planner. so exciting we should have strippers dressed as firemen! and maybe some drag queens viva la vegaygas!

i think its 12:37 AM now

Thursday, March 24, 2005

i can think of no sadder song.


We belong together
and you that I'm right
why do you play with my heart,
why do you play with my mind?

Said we'd be forever
said it'd never die
how could you love me and leave me
and never say goodbye?

I can't sleep last night without holding you tight
each time I try I just break down and cry
pain in my head oh I'd rather be dead
Spinnin' around and around

Although we've come to the end of the road
still I can't let you go
it's unnatural
you belong to me
I belong to you
Come, to the end of the road
still I can't let you go
It's unnatural
you belong to me, I belong to you

I know you really love me,
you just don't realize
you've never been there before
it's only your first time

Maybe I'll forgive you, hmm
maybe you'll try
we should be happy together
forever, you and i.

Will you love me again like you loved me before?
this time I want you to love me much more
this time instead just come to my bed
and baby just don't let me, don't let me down

i think its 1:57 PM now

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

why do you have to be so cute
it's almost impossible to ignore you..

i have 2 days MC! but, i have to drag my sorry ass to work tomorrow. for reasons i can't even begin to explain. am gonna be looking forward to tomorrow night though. we've booked a place at raffles hotel. YUM, cheeseburgers. chilli fries.

do you know it was the austrians who invented the apple strudel?

okay, i'm bored. i'm on a treasure hunt for jeans. diesel jeans. although one of them is gonna cost me my 2 weeks pay. HELP

i think its 11:39 PM now

okay, so i'm home and down with a really nasty bug. too many late nights and coffee as meals has started taking its toll on me.
why's my maid taking so long with the fish soup ? i'm so hungry my stomach's about to eat itself

oh, i can't wait for this friday. birdie YOU'D BETTER CANCEL YOUR TUITION !!!

and i've realized.. i haven't turned off my laptop in 1 week!
andand, the other day when my phone bill came, i saw the 120 mins i clocked up while talking to vanessa overseas.. well, let's just say i should starve for the next few days.

plus, malboro is so expensive.

when the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping.

i think its 12:40 PM now

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

for you.. it wasn't a crush.
it was more like, A CRASH.

i think its 11:49 PM now

i have been blessed with the worst headache in the history of all mother headaches.

you know, if you're working that hard, maybe the relationship isn't working at all.

some people have bad, bad, bad, taste. they should just eat larvae or something

i think its 10:26 PM now

Sunday, March 20, 2005

dig this.

when is the oc coming back? i just spent US$$$ to buy the videos online. ouch. yeah, its called "oc bucks". what the hell?

anyway, i went to the market with my mom today. so we were surveying the vegetables when,

mom(to the old man): wei she me zhe xie cai bu hao kan?
that old man: dang ran bu hao kan!! ying wei ni tai mei le!!

I ALMOST FELL OFF. how fucking corny.

i think its 10:50 PM now

satc season 1 episode 9.
threesomes. carrie actually fell in love with mr big's ex-wife!
can you believe that? i mean whatever happened to monogamy?
are threesomes the new blowjobs?

its a sunday. i love sundays. sundays are family days.
its the whole routine thing. it's conformity that i'm comfortable with.
big american sunday breakfasts.
quick paragon run.
a movie. high tea. a swim, the scooter, blades.

each time i think i'm gonna have to leave this place to study abroad, my heart gets yanked right out and trampled upon.

::Chicago - If You Leave Me Now

i think its 12:10 AM now

Saturday, March 19, 2005

if you're the designer drug,

i'm the recreational user.

i think its 10:23 PM now

people spoil me -

banana waits for me at tanah merah every morning and makes sure i didn't miss the last transport bus;

willy brings my fav food to me every 30 min or so;

robin rushes to get sparkling water for me whenever i start to get that look on my face tucking into my tomyam noodle.

-

today, after carrying my bowl to the canteen table, i realized my nghor hiang was still with the auntie. then william came up behind and told me that the auntie asked him to bring the plate to the skinny mixed girl carrying a pack of cigarettes.

skinny? HELLO ??

so william told her all his friends were fat.

OH, i bought the Xda O2. but i hate it cuz it's so bulky. although the functions are way beyond brilliant. and i saw fiona xie while buying it at funan centre. she's fucking flawless i tell you.

and as i watched carrie bradshaw have an affair with Mr Big, i wondered, do we always need drama to maintain our relationships?

i think its 1:37 AM now

Thursday, March 17, 2005

you say that my eyes are beautiful
i say that's because they're staring back at you..

i think its 12:21 AM now

as tonight promises to be another early morning, i try to wipe that smile off my face.

i'm happy.

because i saw YOU make a HUGEEE detour just to walk by my desk and ask me really irrelevant stuffs that could have made me throw my head back with laughter if i wasn't biting my lip so hard.

ohhhh, you.

i think its 12:14 AM now

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

i lost my necklace.
i lost my 15-century Celtic necklace.
i lost my 15-century Celtic necklace that i bought in austria.
i lost my 15-century Celtic necklace that i bought in austria that has a CHARM on it that would ward off evil that can only work on ME and no one else.

fuck.

i shouldnt have brought it with me to the hot spring.

however dire situations are now, nothing's gonna get me down tonight. because.. I BOUGHT AN iPOD !!!!!!!!

along with 6 iPod socks in various colours. wtf. waste my $$$ only. i bought it just becuz i thought the guy was kinda cute. and he asked me if i was a local. :)

i think its 12:36 AM now

Sunday, March 13, 2005

this place is ultra posh. but it stinks of crigarette smoke. the latte is great. my mother is checking her mail beside me. yawn. im going shopping bye

i think its 2:49 PM now

Thursday, March 10, 2005

don't go saying what you said and expect me not to cry when you know damn right i would.

i think its 1:40 AM now

the simplest phonecalls make me happy.

hippo/rhino love !

it really doesnt feel like i'm flying off tml. alone. i'll hail the cab alone, check-in alone, drink latte at coffee bean alone, board alone.

i think i would like that very much. im gonna plonk myself down and watch sex and the city. im gonna shop at the duty free. the RL skinny polo is $6 cheaper inside. $%#@&

i hope the pacific ocean is enough space.

i think its 1:05 AM now

Sunday, March 06, 2005

happy 48th month you :)

i think its 12:06 PM now

Thursday, March 03, 2005

i can't go on not loving you

i think its 11:58 PM now

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

talked to vanessa t.

i've missed you. a deep, gaping hole tries to fill itself up. i've missed talking to you like this. i don't like how your voice sounds as if your soul's been irrevocably damaged. i'm sorry i wasn't there when i ought to be. i'm sorry you weren't there when i really do need you. like right now. in that timid, primary 5 way. in that rash, unseeing secondary 1 way.

how you made everything better.

how i turned to you every single time, with natural ease, with brave certainty.
and how in every single time, i didn't have to be afraid of anything, with you beside me, behind me, Just There, at the end of every tiring day.

if you think it has been easy for me, it hasn't.

i think its 12:11 AM now