Tuesday, November 30, 2004

you're a fine piece of real estate and i'm gonna get me some land.

got my posb and citibank debit card! :)))) i feel so..adult.

I'm SICK! ugh. i thought despite all that "germ-passing" yesterday, ahem, -coughs- i didn't get YOUR germs. i don't like tablets that refuse to go down my throat. i don't like warm water and no air-con.

i am seeing stars.

okay. sex and the city's on. BYE

i think its 10:22 PM now

okay yes. goodbye everybody. goodbye.

i borrowed my mother's flinging 300 mont blanc pen, you know, to write the invitations. and i dropped it. yes, i frigging dropped it. i don't know how, don't ask me how, i must have lost control of my neurones, my receptors don't seem to be working, and in an obvious attempt to sound less geeky, my central nervous system ain't well-oiled. back to the current predicament. i dropped the pen. so goodbye everyone. -waves in a elegant fashion- this is your last chance before She minces me to styrofoam.

i'm kidding. she won't kill me, will she? i mean, afterall, i'm her only daughter. yes. thats it. she won't kill me. i won't die. she won't get mad. the world can live peacefully ever after.

i'm dead. goodbye. i have the go and face the heavy metal music.

i think its 9:41 PM now

Monday, November 29, 2004

you were right. i cant stop blogging, can i?

my eyes were meant to SEE. not cry. okay?

i hate you for leaving me alone. i hate you for teaching me how to hate you.

thank you for making me stronger.

i think its 1:16 AM now

Sunday, November 21, 2004

i love my animals.

i think its 11:19 PM now

tonight. forlon. forgotten. bored. horny.

i think its 10:37 PM now

Saturday, November 20, 2004

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AUDREY !!!

thats my grandmother im talking about. oh man how long have i known you? 5 years? seems like yesterday we were still chomping on sweets every morning at the back of the class. sniggering during mdm tan's lesson. no, wait. make that EVERY lesson. crying over stupid people. writing every possible song lyrics on that rhino book. BACK AND FRONT. all those inside jokes. all those under-the-table junk. the chem pract where jan almost blew up the lab. and contaminated the entire solution. seems like yesterday we were laughing so hard that even jan's flabby love handles became so muscular.

thank you for one of the best years of my life.

i couldnt have pulled through the entire sec 4 year without the both of you beside me, physically and mentally.

we can say this as many times as we want, but the four of us? -nods. inseperable. unsusceptible. unbreakable.

i think its 1:22 PM now

Friday, November 19, 2004

my oh my oh my oh my boooo ....

i think its 9:42 PM now

Thursday, November 18, 2004

i almost teared when i opened ruth's e-card.

i made you feel special? more like YOU made me feel special.

im all grown up yes but i'm still your 'ahboy' lah. :))

i think its 7:17 PM now

best friend? who am i kidding? nobody comes close. nobody's even fit to take your place. who knows me better than you? who kept me level-headed all the time when i'm furious? who always knew what i'm thinking even though i might spit something else?

i cant think of anyone else who could watch In the Mood for Love with me and laugh our asses off at how freaking boring it was. i cant think of anyone else who would swear promise we'd eat fast-food only thrice a week then find ourselves smudging our faces with Long John Silvers.

who else better?

i always said you were zhong se qing you. you hated it but i always did it knowing i dont mean it at all. in fact, thus far, i cant think of anyone who's less zhong se qing you than you.

yes. i cant think. period.

there was no need to fill the silence. there was no pretense. there was no judging, no uncomfortable-ness to cover, no back-stabbing, nothing. just friendship unadulterated.

on most nights, i'm fine. like you, 'just living with it'.
not tonight no.

tonight, a million thoughts would wash up the coast of my better brain, then recede. wash; and recede.

i think its 6:51 PM now

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RUTH !!!!!!!!

much as i'd like to deny, you're just The Funny.

LOVE YOU THE MOST >
:))

my everlasting sotongball companion my otak provider my fellow food-chaser
YOU and I ROCK

i think its 3:17 PM now

every morning we count down to 8am and i feel like im looking at my life slowly tick away...

i should stop eating papayas at night.

oh yes. shopping. PLEASE. i'm dying a slow death. browsing through ebay is nothing like real, hurts-my-feet shopping.

i cant believe i've come this far. all that crazy playing and partying has trickled to almost nothing and now all i wanna do is curl in bed with someone, perhaps, read a book, watch dvds.

right, whatever. zouk here i come!

people are getting more boring these days.

i think its 3:01 PM now

Tuesday, November 16, 2004

thank YOU

for making all this horrible studying very much bearable.
for making me feel like i own the world


for having lips as sweet as wine.

i think its 2:05 PM now

Saturday, November 13, 2004

i'm sexy eat my buns

i think its 11:27 PM now

my achy breaky heart.

you hor. all your msgs so sweet make me cant bear to delete them leh. now my inbox so full all becos of you. -_-'

HUM JI (hah right back at you)

IM BROKE BROKE BROKE rahhh. chun and i were just saying today, "seriously, we spend ALL our pockeymoney at starfucks." they still chase us out?! wtf. @$%&@$! over-priced lime juice. over-dry muffin. but the perfect skinny latte. and the salmon 'wich. YUMM.

and the guy behind the cash register. his hair's like pubic hair. LOL

once this is over, im NOT stepping into starfucks ever again. spent 9 hours there today.

my oesophagus coughs up its phlegm; my mitosis rate shudders to a close zero; glucose that enters my bloodstream stubbornly refuses to bypass my Liver Ng.

it will be impossible to sleep tonight with your scent lingering on the fringes of my imaginative mind.

i think its 10:59 PM now

Friday, November 12, 2004

ever looked into the mirror? i mean, REALLY looked? cos if i were you i swear i'd never look into mirrors ever.

oh god that has got to be the best comeback ever. thanks to a certain someone for providing me with it! yeah, some people just needed that.

so before you start jumping to conclusions and thinking you know me, DONT.

i dont freaking care what you have to say and i never did. look what he's doing to you? get a grip. dont you have your own principles? values? OH WAIT. i completely forgot. that's for people WITH backbones.

see, unlike you? i'm left to my own defences. my father is working all of the week; my mom is out of this country most of the time. what little time i have with them would be drops of heaven. all the money and gadgets in the world can never make me happy. i come back to an empty home that just seems to grow larger and more void with every minute. i can bulldoze your monthly allowance in a day and it still wont make me any happier. do you see me complaining and whining like you? see, unlike you, i accept life the way it is and create my own comfort zone within the mess that surrounds this whirlpool. see, unlike you, i am not a fucking hypocrite. i always say whats on my mind. see, unlike you, i dont runaway once the going gets tough and blame everyone BUT YOURSELF for the situation you're in. what goes around comes around.

see, unlike you, i understand whats it like to be a grown-up.

i think its 9:42 PM now

i live and breathe for you
but what good does it do?

i think its 9:32 PM now

i'd pay for you to retake your primary school education. PLEASE

laugh all you want. yes. guess who's been watching The Champions!? LOVES IT. fiona xie uses the same phone as me! well, i hope she's having a great time. my freaking phone is freaking hard to sms and now i cant answer calls? just as well. i clocked 10 hours last month. i want the new motorola. tell me where to clone mothers/fathers?

she's sitting with you but her eyes are on the door

Maneater.

baby you dont know what its like, OOOH to love somebody to love somebody
the way that i love you

sm's still crying and im powerless to stop it. i have this overwhelming protection its crazy.

i think its 12:33 PM now

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

my fridge has FOUR HL milk bottles, ONE huge 2litre Masters. MILK MILK MILK.

it also has a huge stack of healthy pepper turkey. one huge tub of haagen dazs frozen yoghurt. low fat cheese crackers. low fat low calorie tastes-as-great pasta.

suddenly, not so hungry anymore. i want something FATTENING. like really oil-drenched.

had practical that day. and i was really late. so the whole time i was whining the mother to GO! FASTER PLEASE! i was seriously worried and i think she got kinda worried too. so when she was turning into school, the entire road was empty. so she said, "SEE. everybody also haven't come yet."

then she started laughing hysterically to herself. -_-

i think its 11:33 PM now

vj bio department does the best blow jobs ever. really. their bio notes? SUCK BIG TIME

where and when do you start to learn how to forgive? and move on? i mean, HOW. i might be able to do alot of things, but the capacity to forgive, a simple basic virtue inherent in saints and monks, i am not. i have never been able to. i mean, monks? they've got god on their side; you cant beat that. i usually tend to swat it off. and usually at times like this, i am at my clamest state of mind, when all i really want is to scream at some people.

someone told me if anyone pisses you off, smile.

so the next time i'm smiling at you? :)

i am suffering from Shopping Withdrawal Syndrome. yes, i'll get my antidote tomorrow.

no matter how many relationships you've had, it doesnt make you any better at handling them. but sometimes? when its your first time? you have No Idea how to handle them at all. handling is one thing. making that other person feel that thing, its another. the whole toe-curling, hair-raising, heart-thumping thing. some people pull it off effortlessly. some people? they just stumble and fall. you know which category you fall into.

everytime i think i can, i cant. there's always this asbestos wall; you keep banging on it but all it ever does is give a little bent, and then go on its way to become a stronger, more complex structure. sometimes you do. you really do. you seem to assume formidable concotions and tear that wall apart with your magical wand. those are the times i fall in love. those are the times when i thought that wall was only a figment of my imagination.

and then i wake up.

would it be okay if we stayed like this, forever and ever?

thats BS. everyone knows it's purely goat's cheese.

it's just me and my baby now.

i think its 11:29 PM now

Saturday, November 06, 2004

admit it already - you need me way more than i need you.

mom bought a lv and ferragamo belt for me.
she's crazy. i love her.

so, Bush won. YAY. i mean, seriously. Kerry? if i squint hard enough, he might look like a very, very old seahorse. besides, fabricating a nuclear weapon is not something a lone madman - even a lone genius - would do in his hobby room. so lets just give bush and his little people the benefit of the doubt and let him invade another oil-rich country so that oil prices per barrel would be jacked up so high that i cant afford a BMW 6 series. a 5 series would be fine.

i told chun that the only thing i'll miss about a levels would be studying with her E-V-E-R-Y-D-A-Y. starbucks-ers are so nice. could they get any cuter? -rolls eyes. DONT HIT ON ME LAH i got my DEER already hor :)

i think its 9:19 PM now

Thursday, November 04, 2004

HAPPY BIRDDAY GERALDINE BLACK BIRD !!!

you're my qing ren and always will be ! thank you for all the retarded stuffs which really brightened up my otherwise extremely gray day. i hope your bird company makes enough money by poo-ing on people so that we can all buy that Bukit Timah house we always dreamt of. remember, you buy the groceries and feed Daisy the dog; i'll be in charge of making sure hippo doesnt deplete our food completely. :)) ilu!

we rock, dont we.

i think its 11:01 PM now

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

if this is for the best, why are you still in my heart, still in my soul ?

let me let go

i think its 1:30 AM now

Monday, November 01, 2004

i bought Birkenstocks sandals! it's supposedly good for flat feet, [mine's really duck-flat] but it hurts like crazy. OUCHouchouch

i'm wearing my scar tonight, listening to coldplay on loop mode.

you're talking to me on the phone, but all i can hear is how Usher begs me to LET IT BURN

i think its 11:59 PM now