Wednesday, September 29, 2004

beautiful.


i think its 8:30 PM now

i dont even know what we're fighting about anymore..

anyway, i have to blog this. today in class, we [me and chun] were observing van's very Very bruised arm from the tennis racket thrown from eugene. [PS van go check it can i think you broke a bone!] so we were stroking and touching it [clears throat] and we went "ROUGH SEX!!" at the same bloody time. ha~ dirty minds think alike. :D

okay thats it. i myself think its rather hilarious.

i so like to wind down with you after a hard day's work, over coffee, talking about almost nothing at all.

went to cold storage today to get all the stuffs to cook my mom breakfast this fri.. its her bday! yeah! children's day. no wonder she still cant grow up ? im so filial. -flashes a very-pleased-with-myself grin.

exorbitant prices i must say. but hmm, bought german bratwurst sausages, buttermilk pancakes, back bacon, mint jelly with smoked lamb, THREE types of cheese, whole cranberry sauce, herbed bread, grapefruit .. okay im feeding an army ! (:

hid it in the fridge thats already brimming with products that are just left to be expired. hope i dont get discovered. but then again, probability of her opening the fridge : ZERO.

otherwise, dont ask about my results. you'll keep your peace.


i think its 7:12 PM now

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

had some CSD on sunday with mom and max. [Compulsive Shopping Disorder] highly gratified with my purchases. amongst them, a $150 Guess? tweed pants. Guess shirt. topshop ripped-off jeans. was kinda fuming that day, so i made my mom buy all that. and i felt really, really bad after that. owells.

going KL this wkend! have got a whole bloody room to myself at the Ritz Carlton! was hoping baby could come with me. think of wot we can do in the hotel room..ALONE. hahha

anyway, there's this film called Chocolat. please, pretty please go watch it. no, i dont get paid for advertising. but this film ranks wayy above pretty woman/runaway bride/notting hill. and you should know how much i adore Julia Roberts. -nods.

watched it at night on my lappie and by the end of it, i was so seduced, i went to Godiva the next morning to grab a few. yumm. -rubs tummy.

i wanna know why after 4 mooncakes ? im still FOOKING hungry


i think its 10:14 PM now

Sunday, September 26, 2004

you. yeah you. im sorry. you know wot im sorry for and you know its you im talking about. dont really wanna spell things out here becuz there're just so many oily noses out there that are so fond of poke-ing into other people's buttcracks.

i cannot believe i forgot. i refuse to believe i forgot. i wish i can undo some time and go back and make you un-sad. i fucking cannot believe i forgot. -takes a sledge hammer and knocks head. i dont think i'll ever forgive myself. its not like i have many dates to remember. of all things, i forgot That Date.

then again, if i could turn back time to do wot i had to do yesterday, i would turn back time all the way back to then. so i would know not to let you go..
im sorry wouldnt suffice, would it?

-kisses you on the cheek lips. can ?

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHH.


i think its 10:59 PM now

Saturday, September 25, 2004

fuck. quarreled with my mom again. fuck. i think for you so fucking much but whats the point in all that? its surreal how i slam the door and bleed all the tears. and then you call and try to apologise but i fucking dont feel a thing. how weird our quarrels are not shouts and screams but just plain cutting words.

my rebellious streak is manifesting itself more violently these weeks. have got family dinner tonight but im fucking not gonna go JUST FOR THE HELL OF IT.

fuck you all lah. wish i could pack up all my stuffs and fucking leave this fucking place


i think its 10:42 AM now

i am so totally doubling over with hyesterical laughter by paris and nicole. that's Dumb and Dumber at its best. go download Simple Life 2 NOW

anyway. went to zoo today! i mean yesterday. with all of them. helluva fun. -nods. there were so many baboons that had like red tumours growing on their butts. yew.

the best part was the white tigers! they had penis-es that had thorns. so the female tiger can only have sex ONCE IN THEIR ENTIRE BLOODY LIFE. how tragic -_-

pls dont let me be a tiger, ever ? HAHA lol

you put my heart in motion


i think its 1:15 AM now

Friday, September 24, 2004


i think its 11:53 PM now

:))


i think its 12:08 AM now

Thursday, September 23, 2004

Baby, baby
I'm taken with the notion
To love you with the sweetest of devotion

Baby, baby
My tender love will flow from
The bluest sky to the deepest ocean

Stop for a minute
Baby, i'm so glad you're mine, yeah
You're mine

Baby, baby
The stars are shining for you
*And just like me i'm sure that they adore you.

Baby, baby
Go walking through the forest
The birds above a' singing you a chorus.

Stop for a minute
Baby, they're so glad you're mine,
And ever since the day you put my heart in motion
Baby i realize that there's just no getting over you

Baby, baby
In any kind of weather
I'm here for you always and forever

Baby, baby
No muscle man could sever
My love for you is true and it will never

Stop for a minute
Baby, i'm so glad you're mine
And ever since the day you put my heart in motion
Baby i realize that there's just no getting over you.

Baby, baby
Always and forever
Baby i'm so glad that
Here for you baby
So glad you're mine
Baby i'm so glad that
When i think about you it makes me smile
Baby, baby be mine
Baby i'm so glad that
Don't stop giving love
Don't stop, no


i think its 8:26 PM now

Wednesday, September 22, 2004

after a month long haitus from the likes of orchard road, i have returned to the mama - HOME SWEET HOME.

PRELIMS are OVER !!

though ecstatic i may very be, somehow the impeding 'A's still cloud my mind like a typhoon. ROAR.

we're always looking for our Jake Dawson's of the world arent we ?

at times i get so darn annoyed at you i can literally pull my hair out. more often than not, i itch to tell you to FO and that i'm totally way out of your league. but then the real me creeps out and then i know there's no one better for me than you.

please for pete's sake STOP STARING AT ME

argh am swearing soo much these days. will cut down. -nods.



i think its 10:56 PM now

Monday, September 20, 2004

i think once i like something, i like it ALOT. taking that ou de yang's song for perfect example. and now im crazy over fir's fly away. yeah, i know. im way behind time. but you know How Much it takes for me to like a chinese song.

anyway. where were we? oh about my excessive liking. like von dutch. like green tea frapp. like.. ralph lauren. like orchard hotel's chocolate buffet. like hilton's mooncakes. like marriot's triple chocolate brownie. like porsche. like friends. like baked beans. like ripcurl board shorts. like nike socks.

then i get so much of it. ulerggh

except the porsche lah.

so today i had physics paper in the afternoon. was taking my time to go to sch. then realized i was famished on the bus. so i stopped by at siglap to grab some starbucks coffee and the muffin. took so long! was still there at 140 when my paper starts at 2. so harry gave me a lift in his BM. hAH. :)

im talking in stattacos. [spell?]

scooting of to study chem. just ONE MORE DAY. faster come. was counting the amount of hours i slept this whole week. and it came to a grand total of 25! -_-

anyway that day ...
mom: so exactly which date does your PSLE end ah?

it took her a FULL 7 seconds to realize it. -_-


i think its 7:38 PM now

Saturday, September 18, 2004

wo ku gou le.


i think its 1:17 PM now

Shawty where you been ?


i think its 1:27 AM now

Friday, September 17, 2004

there's just something about non-branded stuff that i dont like.


i think its 3:08 PM now

i dont think i can live with myself if i knew we could have worked it out. instead of leaving me, leaving us, leaving this, leaving things, like this.

i thought i've reached The Place. where i'm genuinely happy for you. i thought i was okay. i mean, i am. i really am. have been for a long time now. but somehow, something's missing. like a keystone in an arch. like pancakes without maple syrup.

but metaphorically speaking, pancakes on its own still taste good.

remember how you always like to purposely hold my hand in public

hahahahaha

we were young once.


i think its 1:42 PM now

stop following me around like a little puppy


i think its 1:32 PM now

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

im crazy over that ou de yang's song. gu dan bei ban qu. just like crazy, crazy. didnt know nuts about it when max told me she was gonna sing it in sch. i was like, what ? who calls their son OCEAN ?

i think that's becuz that song hugely reminds me of you.

i wonder what tomorrow means to me anymore. the 15th of september. it used to mean alot - an insinuating date, a moment in time. 15th of september. a sensitive, tangible emotion. 15th of september. ?

i guess from these years onward, it's importance will start to corrode away as the memories get etched deeper and clearer. it was a rough road, gravel, rocks, bumps. but i think there were certainly times where there were stretches of highways, clearings, flat, unhindered road. it was those times i remembered most. it is those times i choose to remember.

look at my heart as a testament to how much it misses you

i dont think i can do more than wish you all the best, because only you deserve the best, as ordinary and sincere as it sounds. afterall, you were the one who knew me best. you were the one i talked to the most. you were the one i shared my dreams with. and you were the only one who knew how i liked my kisses.

have a great life.

-

other than that, fucking shit. prelims? fucking shit. fuckernathan couldnt be more apt.

its my due. i've been playing too hard, way to hard during these 2 years. UGH. looking forward to zoo outing with pantyliners aft prelims. currently persuading moony to go check out the new polar bear called Wendy.


i think its 1:38 PM now

Sunday, September 12, 2004

$500. iPod? or clothes? iPod? yeah i reckon too. :)


i think its 1:20 AM now

Friday, September 10, 2004

aaron carter's Do You Remember reminds me greatly of the usa trip in sec4.. its kinda amazing how one song, just one song, is able to tug at all the different heartstrings. you know, for 4 minutes, you're engulfed in the smells, the memories, the words, the looks, and all the feelings you felt during that timeframe comes rushing back like a water rapid. its amazing. but scary.

like right now. the fourth of march still means alot to me. 040301. i remember how audrey KEPT pestering me on what it means.. and how i would give a little smile everytime, like it was OUR little secret.

it still brings a smile to me now. albeit a melancholic one.

i think when something really great happens to you, like how it affects your life, turned it a full circle round, you dont generally forget things like that. you remember.

like how i remember you. you're not with me, but on some level, you're always there.

i hate wondering how you are.


i think its 1:15 AM now

Wednesday, September 08, 2004

yeah i'm mad at me too.

She is benediction
She is addicted to thee
She is the root connection
She is connecting with he
Here I go and
I don't know why I fell so ceaselessly
could it be he's taking over me...

i'm dancing barefoot
heading for a spin
some strange music draws me in
makes me come on like some heroine

She is sublimation
She is the essence of thee
She is concentrating on
He, who is chosen by she

She is re-creation
She, intoxicated by thee
She has the slow sensation
that He is levitating with she...

Here I go and
I don't know why,
I spin so ceaselessly,
'til I lose my sense of gravity...

(oh god I fell for you ...)


i think its 11:42 PM now

Saturday, September 04, 2004

sweet and nice, is boring.

i know that denial is a very powerful coping mechanism? but i think we should pay a little lip service to OUR lip service.


i think its 11:37 PM now

Friday, September 03, 2004

if you're gonna sweep me off my feet,
i'm gonna be the most stubborn dust on the floor.

still a little bit of your face i haven't kiss

its friday again. dinner out again. some nights i just wanna microwave some baked beans, eat leftover casserole, and stuff myself numb with strawberry frozen yoghurt while watching friends re-runs. some nights i miss you so much it's actually starting to get physically impossible for me to stay awake looking at your picture.


i think its 7:06 PM now

Kim