Tuesday, August 31, 2004

i've gone through this in my head a million times and whichever way i look at, there wouldnt be two ways i could possibly know how to solve it.

i cant wait till im 18 . really, really cant wait. everyone around me's turning 18. and why aren't they doing anything!? geez, i already wrote out a list of things to do. -ticks off fingers. amongst them, throwing a party in 2 countries consecutively! and im gonna get a credit card !! not debit, credit !! though i dont really know the difference.

3 more months. talked to parents bout my plans aft As.. apparently, im given a grand total of one week to go out and havoc with my friends, another week to spend it with my god-daughter and cousins.. and then im gonna get JETTED off and out. yeah jetted. pfffft. i think mom's more giddy about my exams ending than me. cant blame lah. she misses me these few weeks cuz i've been going out everyday.. to STUDY wot. sighz.

anyway dec would be in caines. jan in spain.. feb in switz. march or on and off id be tagging along the business trips.. i think i'd be quite very bored. wish i could pack a few people along.. like chun and van and moony..

just today, i was looking thru all my notes. and for every lecture notes that i have, you wouldnt not find scrawlings, doodles, drawings.. graffiti. lots of it. some are really, really, really mother pucker funnnny. some are downright dirrty. [from van lah, who else?] but it made me realise, im gonna miss them so, so so so so much, i cannot start to explain. i dont think i've laughed this hard. like, really stomach-cramping, nerve-freezing laughter.

some feelings never go away.

if its too darn hard for you, dont stay okay?

i think its 12:39 AM now

Friday, August 27, 2004

am listening to air supply. thus the twerp-y posts.

if you dont mind being a total nitwit, i wont mind being a Mean-Girl-Lindsay-Lohan-catfights-with-Hilary-Duff and smile sweetly in your general direction.

so, in the words of van's badge, F..F..F..FUCK OFF !!!

van took the "BEST" part. i took the "FRIENDS" part. i think its kinda dorky, yknow, to be wearing the word "FRIENDS" around your neck. but. :))

i think its 11:33 PM now

remind me how the only thing i look forward to every-day is talking to you __ hours every night?

i think for the past 3 wks, there isint a day that goes by without me meeting chun.. and she's going back to msia tml.. WAILS.

at the rate i'm going, i am gonna be like, be depleted of cash. seriously. where's my rein when i need one? i think its quite due to the fact that my um, purse, is gaping open. it just doesnt close tight and mataphorically, it drains all my $$ out.

do i like GreenDay ? do i ?

well its only like my favourite Day ever.

i think my mom saw the "Saturday Night FCUK" tee that i bought and i think, i THINK, she's not too happy about it. who cares.

you know how when you're in love, like when you wake up in the morning all groggy and indisposed, and the first thing that hits you is that person, and you just Cant wait to brush your teeth eat your cornflakes with milk, [assuming everybody's breakfast is as boring as mine] and jump to school [assuming here again that he or she's in your school] to see him/her.

i dont anymore.

i think its 11:01 PM now

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

because its starting to get tiring.

i'd take you back, you know it. anytime from right now. all you have to do is look in my eye and melting would not be a problem.

Webster says woebegon adj. unhappy.

amazingly funny word. yet infused with so much sorrow.

the Ministry of Heartache's on the lookout for me.

i dont know why i even bother.. i hope this works and twists your brain; i hope this drives you insane; i hope this would make you think of the million things i think you're thinking of what i'm thinking.

innuendos aside. am uber pissed. my essay's supposed to be in Kaleidescope. this annual vj bookery thing. they printed my name on the contents page, but my essay's SWAPPED with another yaberjabooo indian girl!!!! ARGHHH

fuck thy arse.

i think its 10:55 PM now

Monday, August 23, 2004

i think its 9:40 PM now

have got Dior's Chris 1947 Limited Edition. :))
will go get Chanel tml.

when i cried, i think i realised i cared more than i thought i did.

L I A R

i'll know when its over.

chun and i, we were talking about relationships that day. and we came to a bitter conclusion that though love, magical and elusive as it is, we have not understood the true meaning of it. i think if it is, you'll know. like the giddy-chessy-whole-load-of-shit thing. like when i fell into drain just by walking and being immensely in love. i think when love bites, YOU'LL KNOW.

i think its 8:28 PM now

Thursday, August 19, 2004

you got lucky.

if you dare lay a finger on her, i swear i'd roast your testicles for bfast. and when you stare at this in horror while formulating a plan to kill me, your eyeballs would be next.

colin said people are born to irritate you. for some people, that couldnt be more true.

aww would that not be a tinge of jealousy i hear ? fuck off for bob's sake. obese flapping ostrich, drooling baboon, spastic hairodoodledoo.

i cant really blame you for having FACE CANCER can i ?? lol.

anyway, -flicks irritating people aside- , in these 2 days, in 2 different starbucks, ive met 2 different people from Temasek poly. hmm. how come i'm not bumping into OTHER tp people ??

so today i was msging chun..

chun: eh where are you?
me: at starbucks with you-know-who..
chun: you've got so many you-know-whos... WHICH one!?
me: Lord Voldemort
chun: you traitor.. i'll ask heroic harry to come to starbucks to kill you-know-who

-_- a rather huge inside joke but well, if you understand, you'd understand. :)

my fringe's so short, im resorting to putting a paperclip on it.

i think its 12:04 AM now

Wednesday, August 18, 2004

i think its 12:30 AM now

Monday, August 16, 2004

this kiss, this kiss. :)

moosik: 1st Ladi - Never Be Replaced

i think its 11:48 PM now

Saturday, August 14, 2004

know what? it felt right.
holding your hand like that.

i think its 12:36 AM now

Thursday, August 12, 2004

its three fourty-bloody-six am and im still awake.

mom's doing aerobics. crikey.

made plans to have bfast at 8. slag? tell me something i dont already know.

i think its 3:46 AM now

take your butt and your gluten intolerance somewhere else.

i dont really have time for you.

i think its 2:45 AM now

Tuesday, August 10, 2004

oh yeah, forget it mention. was at starbucks the other day, heard some girls gossiping that Usher was in there the day before. fuckkkk!!!

i think its 8:19 PM now

and i'm back. it has well and truly been both the longest and shortest week i've ever had. 2nd shortest would have to be when i was in cameron with ...

anyway, it was a good fantastic break. besides it was summer, and Bournemouth, [pronounced Burn-Moth] being a beachfront town, it had all the ingredients of a perfect summer holiday. sun, lots of em, open-aired cafes, hotdogs, bangers [sausages] and mash, tons of ice cream and milkshake, and within a short span of a few days, i've just about seen all the beautiful people i've ever met and ever gonna meet.

left home exactly 1 wk ago with a extremely heavy heart. many of them encouraged me to just enjoy myself. knowing fully that i couldnt as i was feeling especially dorky. touched down london time 8pm and the sun was still full blast, everyone walking around in bikinis and trunks and.. the weather was brilliant as we headed southwest, dipping to a cooling 17. i think its all the meat they eat, but the Brits, damn, they have great tolerance. i was absolutely freezing in my jeans and shirt and there they are, just shorts and sometimes STARK naked. good view, i reckon. :D

the B & B we lodged in was rather charming, if you like creaking floorboards and wafer-thin walls and rusty showers. one morning, while i was watching mindless tv in the room, i heard much, err, ROMPING in the next room. -snorts. anyway, i think i've piled on a couple of pounds! i've been eating nothing but meat,meat, meat, jacket potatoes,steaks,chips, fries and whatnots.

i found someone especially yummy. haha

had plenty of alone time for the first 2 days. mom had to work so i was left to explore the town on my own[with much begging that i'll be safe]. was delighted to find borders and so i happily settled down with my starbucks frap to do abit of studyin. i was at the table, yknow, meekly doing my math, when i raised up my head to find that i was surrounded by balding, old british men!! i was darn freaked out. anyways, i quickly shifted to another table, just to find more of them slooping away!! they were all sweating, although i had on my warmest pullover, and YIKES. hairy, balding, old and sweating. not very nice, eh. so that was just about all the studying i did for the entire week .

UK's like, the most expensive place to live in. omfg. i spent two thousand sin without actually realising it. shopped the first day, and grabbed some stuffs and accessories for them. and i mean, SOME. it totalled to a hundred bucks. you should have seen my face. gotten over it pretty quickly, ha-ha, bought more quirky stuffs for home. you'd think everything is cheap, cuz its like 2 pounds 3 pounds. but you times that by 3.2 and its fcuking ex!! came home to find a $15 pencil sitting in my bag. -puts head in big black bag, ties it up, and flings it to the cats.

went to Windsor Castle on sat. there was this time, when a carraige and guards pulled up. everyone thought it was prince william or smth. esp the jap girls. -rolls eyes.

it was more shopping. like plasticbags full of it. bought lotsa stuff from topshop, fcuk and dkny. and many flipflops! felt rather guilty cuz most of it's not worth it. i'm bratty, what to do ?

I SWAM IN THE ENGLISH CHANNEL !!! beat that.

okay, not really swam, per se. waded. it was so pretty/gorgeous/beautiful. i could really get used to it. waking up to ocean water splashing against the windows, smells of bacon and coffee from downstairs, the sun blotting out my face at 5-bloody-am. sigh. spore's so HOT.

i drank this 67% of the time. they should really bring it here. -peels eyes away from website. i drank a whooping 5 milkshakes that day.
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i think i said "i'll miss you"?

i dont think i did.

i've missed you terribly.

i think its 7:33 PM now

Monday, August 09, 2004

hello from UK ! at my mom's office now.. highly bored. freezing my skinny ass off. its so beautiful out there..wot am i doing in here mann? i think i know why. currently, missing someone like crazy, i'm still figuring out why. melancholy has its weirdest way of manifesting itself. such a romantic place, such a breezy weather. where are you?

its 6 37pm but it looks like the sun's still furious.

i think its 1:23 AM now

Monday, August 02, 2004

the moon today looks like a very bright torchlight peered through really murky waters.

i'm watching friends for the 7832462359th time.

i'm parking my heart here, okay?

i've just finished packing and i'm sneezing like crazy, vapex stuck up my nose. its insane how much i wanna bring up there, but before my luggage choked and finally closed up begrudgingly, mom said, "if you dont have any more space, dont even think of buying anything back."

so yes, my comfy pair of ax jeans, 2 shirts, and my quiksilver n billabong pullover WILL suffice.

oh heck it, i'm stuffing a foldable bag in. i mean, must look good when taking pictures right? wearing the same old thing wont help.

i think i'm going white-water rafting. i hope i do.

and i cant bring my lappie along !!!! -wails. maybe i should get a World Card so i can call you...

i should get going. meeting them for breakfast at kiliney's before i fly off tml. vaness seowww am gonna miss you hen duo hen duo.

whatever it takes, thats wot i'm gonna do.

i think its 9:55 PM now

Sunday, August 01, 2004

went to my grand uncle's surprise party today at One Fullerton.

i wonder where will i be at 80 ?

gosh, it was The Nicest Party ever. for an oldie like him. it was so grand i felt so underdressed. it was rumoured to be 2000 per table. which is like 200 per person.
i really do have weathly relatives. i should really start hanging out with them.

i think its 12:21 AM now

you gossip and bitch to other people about me. you question and infer and presume. if you wanna get to know me, come up and say HI lah. L O S E R

i think its 12:03 AM now