Sunday, May 30, 2004
i think if i knew what Utada Hikaru was singing in First Love, i would cry. i think its 12:35 AM now
Thursday, May 27, 2004
in every group, every clique, every social establishment, every girl,jock,bimbo,geeky basic block, there is always a joker - the one who cracks everyone up. a narcissist - the one who is very cute but very self-absorbed. a total gooner - on the brink of obscurity and blurness. a caretaker - the one who makes sure everyone get food, is warm/cold, healthy and happy. a pillar - the one who rolls up their sleeves, rubs their hands together and says, "okay-this-is-how-we're-gonna-solve-this". a confider - the one you can tell everything to and not worry he or she's gonna judge you.
i used to not need anyone else bucuz i found all of that in you.
i think you know who you are.
i needa hug! :|
every rose has its thorn.
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caught The Day After Tomorrow today. forget bout it. forget bout Deep Impact. forget bout Independance Day. that show shakes my legs.
went down to Delta Sports Com to support Hockey Girls. yayy we won 1-0 ! -sigh. i'm still pretty glum knowing TJ badminton girls lost to ..uh, VJ. yesyes, murder me now. but i'm kinda attached to TJ girls team! all the sweat, the trainings, the smashes, the drops. bonded me somehow. -looks away.
anyhow, meet the entire world today! and yest, i met my silly TC [toilet companion], GUOZHEN !! she was outside my sch distributing..flyers. oh gawd i truly do miss that girl! looking at her always drives me down Memory Lane.. -coughs.
went bedok interchange instead of tanah merah cuz 14's always so crowded and takes hell long! not much of a point huh. saw all the TJ pple there. stood there to talk for like almost an hour .. saw Eugene Teo Qing Cong !! =) and goony milk!! =))
i look at YOU, and then i look at YOU. and then i know now that you both can never ever be the same. there's just no comparing.
i think its 9:33 PM now
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
I'd be a fool, for you.
sure, i enjoy the occasional hip-hop and alternate. punk rock, even. but it's songs such as these, that i live for, that never run out of time.
and for all the things i didnt say or do, here's to how you made my life not the least it could be, but the happiest, the warmest, and the most comforting one it will ever be. your presence i will keep with me forever, cuz you make me smile.
its nice to know someone's always gonna back my ass. i sympathize with those who didnt know how that feels like.
i think its 10:26 PM now
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
2 stitches, and counting.
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your love is like a giant pigeon crapping all over my heart.
i think its 12:09 AM now
Monday, May 24, 2004
us on my mobile!
i'm suffering from The Wkend withdrawal syndrome.
i think its 11:28 AM now
Sunday, May 23, 2004
xI LOVE MOM PART TWOx
me: they could never be like us, mom. we're the best. we rock my socks.
mom: dont put your smelly feet on my new car!!! (finally realizes my declaration of love) huh what? oh you're mommie's sweetheart ma. my darlingggg.
see wot i mean. -nods. HAH.
i think its 1:16 AM now
me: see i treat you so nice.
mom: yah yah you sure.
me: i always pei you around!
mom: you only got 1 motive. buy more stuffs.
me: you're really pretty.
mom: wot do you want?
me: no. really. i love you!
mom: -grins like a mad cow.
wtf. :)
i think its 12:51 AM now
seriously, right now, at this moment, right here, i've asked myself a million times. and yes, i couldnt be happier. =)
this bloody hell of a phone is so cool, i'm actually staring at it in awe.
mom got herself a Motorola MPX200. okay. the presence of 2 mere phones at home have reduced me to a stuttering idiot.. she finally got wot she wanted. a phone and a palmie rolled into one. fecking hell, it even has MSN msgr! but, well, the scales are very much tipped to my advantage. she has no idea how to use the phone, and its size is too big to fit into the pouch in her LV bag. LOL. so, very, very technically, i have 2 obscenely cool phones. yikes ?
i think its 12:25 AM now
Saturday, May 22, 2004
two words.
perpetual pms.
go away.
i think its 1:48 AM now
its one a.m. and i'm still simultaneously talking to 7 people. i think i'm going to have a heart bypass sooner or later.
caught ShRek 2 today. hrms. moooonie and ting's highly amused and i dont know why. i think van and i are wayy more matured than that, right? -nudgenudge.
THAT is the bloody reason why i totally ABHOR sporean mags. yeww. saw Orlando Bloom on the cover of Lime and impulsively bought it. was rather elated with my purchase but it turned out to be a total dud - 4 FULL pages on S.H.E., 2 on the bimboetic Eye for a Guy. bloody waste of money. grr.
even with the mega construction of that thorny piece of architecture the STB likes to call it the Esplanarddd, singapore is still indeed a colossal performing-arts desert. even the worst city in the world, dreary Detroit, has more young and budding bands having gigs in uber cool clubs. ahh yes. dont get me started on the clubbing scene.
so ephing cheesey.
i know i'm way obsessed with the O.C. when i have their every song on my jukebox.
Moosik: Love of the Loveless - The Eels
i think its 1:05 AM now
Thursday, May 20, 2004
of course wot you said came as no surprise to me.
how come you're that predictable?
i think its 11:19 PM now
i think its 8:27 PM now
Wednesday, May 19, 2004
i try with everything i have; i go a million miles out of my way to make you happy. i take a tonne of my insecurities and fix them up with a band aid. but the only thing i've met so far is your so screwed up attitude that you keep promising you'll change. when are you ever gonna realise, the only thing that needs changing is your perception of yourself?
tell me when you're done growing up. :)
i think its 11:27 PM now
i think its 11:27 PM now
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
i have the power to make you or break you.
dont give me that.
as much as i would like take all the money and blow it on a new pair or sneakers, Apple's iPOD, or perhaps a nice meal with my friends, i am, afterall, more of a stalwart than you and therefore, would not jeopardize my pride and justice for a measly $200/-. seriously, people like you JUST PISS ME OFF.
COME ON.
what goes around comes around.
i go everywhere and i see you. how is that even possible?
now i know the reason why i find it incredibly hard to study at home. my mom and i can talk for hours on end, i swear. there's just too many things.
so she's dropped the bombshell. i have to complete at least half of my studying these 2 weeks becuz of the holiday she's planned. -snorts. yep. rightttt.
your actions are telling me nothing more than my heart does - i really dont know. patience is definitely not your forte. and committing isint exactly mine either. why are you being so weird?
you know wot the bullshit about platonic relationships are? B.S. -nods.
vanessa tells me life sucks. well i couldnt agree more.
in a balmy and fiery night like this, singapore is truly the last place i wanna be.
this is totally out of context but Brad has the buffiest body i have ever seen on anyone. Greek god?
i live for movies like Troy.
i think its 10:35 PM now
Sunday, May 16, 2004
inbox msg 20 >>
if i hadnt answered you that question, does that not say something? why bother asking again? :)
you just have to walk into the room with Orlando Bloom, that'd crush your ego in a second flat.
it is sO nice. to sit on my bed, under the sheets, lappie on my well, lap, and surf. the limits of technology? infinite. wireless mishmash rocks. i even bring it to the toilet with me.
i'm part Jewish !?!??! YIKES.
caught Van Helsing. err, not much to say bout it. vampires are just not my type.
damn off tonight. i hate sundays. ROAR
i think its 11:14 PM now
Saturday, May 15, 2004
the flow of tissues into the dustbin remains endless. i have definitely seen better days.
ie, yesterday. i bought my hanson cd !! am a majorly happy twit.
its been such a long time since i've heard a cd by itself. people these days either download a single song or the entire album, without paying much attention to the lyrics. personally i believe cds were made to listen in its entity. as a package. a profound meaning/story to tell within 10 or more songs. i believe these artistes are trying to tell their listeners something through these albums. take, for a brilliant example, the greatest album of all time, The Beatles's Abbey Road - their first album. they created waves and raves that year. i feel that it was the message that the entire album gave the listeners that made it immensely popular till this date.
not just by one song. people these days destroy the delicate balance of the album-making paradigm. people these days suck. anyway, you catch my drift.
i think its 9:10 PM now
i think its 9:09 PM now
Thursday, May 13, 2004
some people are just so.. un-tangible.
hanson's new album is coming out !!! i want i want i want !!!
they used to be like, girls. nobody i knew fancied them as much as i did. but they had this grunge charm that other bands, thinking that by writing their own songs and playing a few impressive guitar strokes would make them wholly different, didnt have. embarrasing though might be, i can memorize their cds end to end.
maybe that very particular cd, that very particular year, that very particular person gave it to me.
oh and did i mention they have short hair now?
He says where he's from is called Albertane
There they use more than 10% of the brain
But you couldn't tell it from they way they behave
They run around in underwear and they never shave -croons.
i think its 9:32 PM now
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from
California!
Here we come!
daft name for a band. but still. they rock my socks. an old-school western feel.
its been so long since i've found a good song. one fine song used to be able to keep me satisfied for weeks. it would resonate in my head the entire day until i feel like i'm playing out each lyric, breathing each verse - when the tune jumps out and stares at me blankly in the face. i have to go search for more. maybe today. maybe tomorrow. doesnt matter. i've got so much time.
i think its 9:17 AM now
Wednesday, May 12, 2004
Top 5 reasons people are afraid of love:
5. Love is a delusion
It's all in the mind ... fantasies constructed on a casual glance, a meaningless pleasantry, a polite invitation. Even a sacred promise to love, honor and obey may dissipate in less than 48 hours. Just ask Britney Spears and Jason Allen Alexander.
4. Love is embarrassing
Think of all the stupid things people do for love, from toting around the six-foot stuffed bear he won at the carnival as a token of his affection, to wearing a penguin suit to a wedding. If the object of your affection gets drunk and picks a fight with your boss, what does that say about you and your judgment?
3. Love is demanding
There are flowers to be sent, sonnets to be composed, egos to be stroked. Who has the time and energy?
2. Love is blind
Love sees faults as foibles. Differences are delicious, not deal breakers. When opposites attract, they think they're two pieces that combine to finish the puzzle. But as time goes by, complimentary temperaments can clash. What were once delightful eccentricities become noxious habits.
1. Love hurts
It burns hot and cold. Either way, it's a pain.
do you mind if we kissed real slow?
i think its 11:16 PM now
everytime.
i asked myself wot makes me weak in the knees. and then i realised its you.
i feel strange. out-of-my-body strange. i see all these invested into me and i cannot help but break down, and out. its hard, too hard, to contain my emotions the entire day. the only time i let them run wild's when the lights go off, when you're in your lumber, when i only have my pillow as your shoulder, my blanket - your hugs.
as always, i'm caught in between this tremendous cyclone of a game, as michelle branch would like to sing, and carlos santana - to play.
van: wot do you get when you put a bomb inside a woman's shirt ?
TITBITS. wtf!!!! :)
i think its 12:53 PM now
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
amazing or wot? i've got an A for physics. -puffs up.
staying at home's making me light-headed. am sick again. ULERGH. but i was kinda expecting it. the whole lot of them's sick. who's next up on The Hit List? -nods. ME.
do you not know me well enough to believe me when i say i'm okay?
had a long talk on the phone with that someone from a particular shrouded part of my past. it is not surprising that we could still talk for 2 straight hours and still feel like we could talk more into the morning. its getting increasingly difficult to admit that nobody gets to me like you did.
some things change.
i think its 1:01 PM now
Thursday, May 06, 2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY VANESSA SEOW YUHUI !!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAUW XIUTING !!!
van: i dont think any present, any words, would suffice to say thank you. though it would be very much appropriate to say happy birthday and be done with it, but for someone like you, it is never enough. we've have niffy little details ironed out, cried over, shouted at, hugged to, but we've been through enough shit together to ever be apart. yeah, shit bonded us. though insensitive i may be at times, if truth be told, i dont think i ever meant to hurt you in any way. well, maybe for this week, i shall laugh at all your jokes, or so you call it, and try not to bite my lip at the same time. you know why? cause you're worth it baby !! i know you're rolling your eyes right now, making that irritating pucking noise you always make with your lips, but hell, i dont know wot i'd do without you right here with me. =) aww?
xt: i think i've said enough when i said i love you. you're the nicest person i've ever, EVER met, i swear. just try to be more garang in future and dont let anyone bully you okay? i think the worst part was seeing you cry THAT day. i dont know, it just broke me. told myself i will never ever let anything that minor come and ruin it all for us again. well, till then, please tell me when you can go clubbing wit me!! and yeah, eating ROCKS !!
i think its 11:11 PM now
Wednesday, May 05, 2004
a certain sweet person gave me this.
tucked away between my physics tys, peeking out shyly at me in the locker.
aww?
been looping it in my stereo ever since.
i think its 11:12 PM now
Sunday, May 02, 2004
VJ funfair yesterday. it was..different. it had all the makings of a very fun day. was rather glad that the family came down, just goes to show how much they care. :)) they were really impressed at much gusto is injected into the atmostphere; the games, the food. and yeah -slow smile- our stall DID ROCK !! at the end, when there were no more BUNS left, me and van were just like, NO MORE! WE'RE CLOSED ALREADY ! :/ i wont ever open a stall, or a shop. not that i have the chance to anyway. but yeah, if i ever do? i'll hire alot of helpers. was really insane yest! mayo everywhere, tomato, chilli.. ewww. was it really that yummy? hygiene level? zero.
my tummy was growling, and the chocolate fondue next to us where just like, so tempting me. but all in all, it was good. if i could i do it again, i would. but this time, i'm gonna bring more plastic gloves!
moosik: 911 - Party People.....Friday Night
i think its 11:16 AM now
i think its 12:03 AM now
Saturday, May 01, 2004
she just made me cry.
i wonder what people mean when they say "my best friend". do they mean it hypocritically, just to showoff, just to make themselves look good? or do they really mean it veraciously, right from the bottom of their heart? because to me, "best friend" is an unspoken agreement. a silent will. a mutual acknowledgement, between 2 people who have no qualms bout each other. there's no need for proclaimation, pretence, or judgement.
Vanessa Tang Chun Yan, you were my best friend the moment you chivalrously offered to sit beside me; cold, shivering, frightened and spoilt, bawling my senses numb, ME, back in K2. if fate played his mischievious cards on us when he took you away from me, he must have meted out his sincerest deck when he made our paths cross that day. you still are my best friend, and will always be. if you think that changed us forever, you're wrong.
the past 2 years have been hard, undoubtedly. no one could ever take your place. they tried, believe me, they did. but..its not YOU. . it doesnt matter that you can just 'swing' by my house anytime you feel like it, it doesnt matter that we can call each other up in the middle of the nite and talk rubbish. it doesnt matter how many birthdays we've celebrated together, how much tears, laughters, in-the-same-boats with each other. it still doesnt matter that everyone were jealous of you, of me, of us, of "THE US". people tried to break us up, to ignite doubt, to tear apart at the seam of our friendship. but it couldnt have been anyone else except the both of us, to do a job that ludicrous, yet convincing. fervently, yet placidly. mercilessly, yet witholding. it tore me apart.
i still remember that day at the bball courts, when someone looked at us and said "wow." yes, wow. on the surface, it was all jostling, teasing and keen torment. but silently, i thank god you're by my side at the end of the day. till today, till many years later, i still haven't found, and wont find, someone who came closer to me than you.
we've had our fair share laughters - i had my share - but none more enjoyable than what we had. its incredible how much you mirror me. the me that nobody sees, the me that nobody ever bothered to find out. its amazing how i dont see the desperate need to talk when im with you. its like telepathy, if you may. secondary sch life wouldnt be just as it is without you.
and you thought i was fine. i didnt want you to think otherwise.
i hope you're fine.
i miss you.
and yes, by the time we're 50, you'll still be forcing the meek and obliging me to take ketchup for you at LJS. lol*
i think its 11:58 PM now
Kim