Sunday, February 29, 2004

watch that foul thing that you call YOUR MOUTH.

i've heard alot of "drink more water!" but i think if i take another gulp, i would just *barf.
water's so tasteless!!!!
and porridge. UGH as if rice isint that bad enough.
rice AND water !!!! yuckyuckyuck.

took a jab this morning in my butt. i was squirming and writhing away and the doctor slapped my butt !! haha i quote cheese, so "kinkEHHH".

i've got 2 days mc..! on one hand, i'm glad. i can get to rest AND watch my Oscars!
but hell, there are probably a billion uncopied notes and undone tutorials.
and do i care? remotely, i know i do. really really do. i can be what you would call a kiasu.
but sometimes i just wanna run away. like tg said.
scuttling off is one thing. coming back and facing them again is another.
i'm washing my hands off. :X

dad's still the sweetest thing on earth. john mayer's a close second. :)

there's this mega rich French guy who's hell bent on wooing my mom. He's even invited her[and hopefully,really hopefullyme] to his yatch in Marseilles, the South of France!
its bloody yatch baby! i know no one who owns a yatch!! a sampan perhaps. but not a yatch!! -drool.

i think its 10:27 PM now

Saturday, February 28, 2004

i'm swearing on my smelly life that i'm never EVER gonna drink margaritas. ever again.

and margaritas do NOT go well with pasta, and why the bloody Italians seem to think otherwise is beyond me.

and i think i mentioned it already. i hate nursing hangovers. esp when you're nursing it over a bloody Chem test!

i just wish my head would stop hurting, period.

i think its 11:36 PM now

Wednesday, February 25, 2004

*i can't believe you're here with me
and now it seems my world's complete
and i never want this moment to end
i close my eyes and still i see
my dreams become reality
and now i now how it feels to be in love

i prayed so many nights that you would come my way
an angel from above to light my darkest day
i think it's time for you to heed these lines
cos there's something i wanna say

i finally found what i've been looking for
and now you know i'm going to love you more
hold me tight cos it's always been you
to think that you were always there
to be my friend and wipe away my tears
now it's clear that it's always been you

sometimes you don't expect that friends
can become lovers in the end
only god knows what the future will bring
so hold me close and don't let go
cos this is love, boy, don't you know?
and we're gonna be together for eternity
i prayed so many nights that you would come my way
an angel from above to light my darkest day
a love so strong it's can't be wrong
it's with you that i belong*

i finally found what i've been lookin for
and now you know i'm going to love you more
hold me tight 'cos it's always been you
to think that you were always there
to be my friend and wipe away my tears
now it's clear that it's always been you

*this time i'm gonna make sure it turns out right
i wanna be your everything and by your side
for the rest of my life
this love feels the way that love should be
look in my eyes and realise there's no disguise
cos i'm in love with you

i finally found what i've been looking for
and now you know i'm going to love you more
hold me tight cos it's always been you
to think that you were always there
to be my friend and wipe away my tears
now it's clear that it's always been you

i think its 10:12 PM now

wonder if hippo's okay..
"i miss you guys a whole lot.. feel like rolling over to yr sch rite now! feel so empty without you.. miss ya crappings! my class so boring.. dread.."

i wanna *hug you too!! :(

you know how they say 'i can die missing you'.. thats a very cheesy line aint it?

no NOW i can really die.

i cant wait for Mardi Gras 2004!! i can finally see them again!
and goony!! oh god, i realllllly do miss that silly girl a WHOLE lot.

but i just dont feel like seeing //some// people there..
yeah, DREAD !! -rolls eyes. really really do hope i wont bump into you. GAHHHH

i'd be praying extra hard for you okay, Sean? smile :)

i think its 9:14 PM now

Monday, February 23, 2004

a very long time ago.. i told yy,
"you're probably the most generous person i know.."

know wot yy replied?

"actually i think i should be the one saying that to you.."

awww.

its funny how little things like that can open up a whole new horizon.

i think its 9:20 PM now

i feel like writing a song about everything, about us.. but there's nothing that rhymes with

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!

i think its 9:18 PM now

i didnt wanna write anything here actually.
but you totally made me lose it.
dont wanna mention names here but *** ******** !
you lan jiao bin. [sorry sorry]
to think that i was actually defending you when others were talking bad bout you! OH GOD.
wow.
its amazing how you are still able to pull stuff like that. you just made me speechless.
GET A LIFE YOU LOSER!
i truly want to be the bigger person here and dont mind you copying my style but you just HAVE to piss me off!!!
have you ever wondered why i'm like that only to YOU?
because you're so fcukin annoyin and unreasonable and pathetikk andandand UGLY!! :|
guys, you know who im talking about.

sod off already !!

i think its 9:07 PM now

Sunday, February 22, 2004

van told me someone loved reading my blog..
i speak in riddles? no ? yes?
i'm not bloody Macbeth!!

anyways. was talking to cheese on msn audio convo last night at 2am.. this morning, actually. not really a proper conversation, per se. but he has a mic, i dont have a mic, so he was just speaking to me and i couldnt reply.
was hell funny!!
i asked him to be like those people in Burger King.. you know, when you order, they speak into the mike, "2 Whooper Double Cheeseburger" sorta thing?
so he started saying some things.. and the mike wasnt really in mint condition.
so i heard smth along the lines of "wot fries lah one fries fries your head lah"!
haha. and the worst part was my maid walked in and thought there was a guy in my room !!

HAHA!

i think its 9:12 PM now

if this gets highly cheesy, forgive me, cos MY MOM'S THE COOLEST MOM EVER. truly.
just when i thought she couldnt get more incredible with all that stuff she has to handle at work and at home.. she goes out of her way to do smth else that stuns me more than i could ever, ever be stunned. it doesnt matter if she's got guys trampling over each other to date her. it doesnt matter if she's already 4_. it doesnt matter if she's got really, [really] frizzy hair which she hates. and it doesnt matter that i've seen her when she's reading the daily newspaper, hair all bunned up and frayed, burgundy specs perched like an old grandma on top her amazingly high nose from which i inherited -- at her most vulnerable.
because at the end of the day, she's my mom, i LOVE HER.
-tight smile. i feel like i'm writing a personal ad for her.. HA. (:

Asian Aerospace 2004's coming up, and its keeping her away from home more than usual, wot with being the organiser and all.
she's got tickets free for me and my friends, and she's bringing us up to the Executive Lounge for lunch! and mind you, its only for invitees!
so girls, know how lucky you guys are ! (:
and i've heard, there are only 2 airshows in the world that are worthy. One, in Paris. the other, well, in singapore!
so i'm guessing this is gonna be HUGEE!!

so anyways, today's Family Day ! something very funnyyy happened..
okays, me and my mom were browsing the stuff at Royal Sporting House.
so we were walking.. talking, you know. wot-nots.
so as i was moving on to another aisle, all the while rambling smth or other to her, when i realised nobody's beside me !
and so i turn around, just to find her laughing so hard to herself that her head was almost touching the floor !! HAHAHA
i know it doesnt seem funny to you, but you HAVE to be there!
oh god. she's already 4_ and she's still playing these games !
GROW UP MOM !!!!

anyway. was typing until the above paragraph when..
MY MOM WON 4D !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

she shouted, "KIM!!!!!!"
so i got incredibly hyped up. i thought i did smth wrong lah.
then i rushed to her room and she started hugging me and jumping up and down .. i was like, WHAT THE?

"2873!!! second prize!!!"
my eyes were the size of saucer dishes man. haha..
*blessed i tell you.
see, hao ren you hao bao. (:

scooting off to do abit of work now.
yayyyy!!! unlimited shopping sprees!!

i think its 8:29 PM now

Saturday, February 21, 2004

had a long day out. whew. reached home not to long ago.. emotions kinda running high now.. its extremely hard to describe, especially when you're all whacked out and disgruntled. like i am now..
had Maths CT today.. dont wanna dwell on it too much but it basically sucked. when the teacher said, "you may begin now", i was on the verge of shitting. okays, overshare.
proceeded to town after that..
caught "Something's Gotta Give" !! reviews were good, raves were fantastic. and i think it totally suited van, precisely due to how her corrupted mind is tuned to such dirrrty stuffs.. haha -wink.
went to Max's party after that! in my sch uniform, yes.. grr.
felt like a walking, reeking rubbish dump.
Didnt eat much and i'm incredibly hungry right now! :|

i cant have this fight with you over and over again..

i dont know wot to feel anymore.. i wish i could feel sad and depressed but i'm not.. tell me wot to feel can? because i feel as if i'm losing this battle all over again..

i think its 11:52 PM now

Thursday, February 19, 2004

hao xiang zai wen yi bian.

ni hui deng dai hai shi li kai ?

i think its 8:37 PM now

Tuesday, February 17, 2004

i typed in something so explicit but i'd rather not take a shot at it in here.

the moment i heard what HE said, it only took a macrosecond of shock before the rage seeped in. oh immature shite. really, do people our age still do that anymore? Grow up already. short, overtly-built, overtly-tanned, ugly, awful-featured bastard bitch. you really do amaze me you know. how you manage to pull things off like that? i mean, i know i should be all forgiving and generous and empathetic, and let you have the glory for making yourself look "big" for a while. just so that you wont seem so pathetic.
but heck it.
i've already thought up of a million not-so-nice stuff to say to you.

people really shouldnt mess with me.

i think its 7:27 PM now

Sunday, February 15, 2004

I WANT MY NIKE DUNKS!! :/
bought an ascics shoe in the end.. and i finally have my Adidas white cap!

i think that of all the things i've learnt, patience and complaisant i have not.
argh argh argh argh argh
sometimes i hate myself for thinking up all sorts of piercing statements to hurl at you and then immediately regret it. and then regret regretting it. sometimes it all gets too confusing that i have to sit down and sought myself out for a little while before going out and handling all those stuff again.
i hate it when i'm spoilt.
i hate it when i HAVE to have this and HAVE to have that.
i hate it when i throw tantrums and show an unbelievably black face.
i hate it even more when you comply to my demands and wants and how you manage to twist it all around to make it seem as if everything's MY fault.

tonight, i just wanna run around stark naked. screaming at the of my voice.

this site's still a little rough 'round the edges. bear with me cuz im still lazy to html everything..

anyway, on a lighter tone.. Happy Belated Valentine's Day!

i truly CANNOT wipe that smile off my face.
i look like a frikkin idiot.

i think its 8:57 PM now

Forgive me father, For i have sinned.

i think its 8:53 PM now

Thursday, February 12, 2004

sipping my Green Tea Frappacino that i demanded my mom to bring me to Siglap to buy, i'm watching American Idol 3 and i finally know the reason why i DONT like local shows.
im loading up on carb like crazy, leading up to the 3.3 click run on sat.. i think i'd just feign stomachache or smth..
sally just told me that Mark's popular! oh god. almost died laughing. HAHA!

laters.

i think its 10:23 PM now

new layout! nicenice? :) dont worry html idiots out there like me, this one's a complete no-brainer.

someone asked me out on valentine's. no prize for guessing wot my reply was. NO!

i dont know wot all this fuss about valentine's day is. okay, go ahead and celebrate your undying emotion for each other. but if you dont do those small, little, treasured gestures everyday, just wot is the point really? i think i'm just gonna bail on that night.
yeah, RIGHT!

was with van and moony at parkway today.. bought wicked gifts for Ben! HA. shan't elaborate too much here. -shakes my pi pi.
chun wanted to buy con***s for Sean and share them wit me for Ben. but i guess neither of us wants to do the dirty job of embarassing ourself at 7-eleven..
yien was silly enough to skip maths AND chem s [i think] to do work with me at Burger King.. but i had to rush back home lah..

My mom's new car is spankin'!! SFF 5253 Z. COOL!!!

Shake that thing Miss Kana Kana
Shake that thing Miss Annabella
Shake that thing yan Donna Donna
Jodi and Rebecca

Woman Get busy, Just shake that booty non-stop
When the beat drops
Just keep swinging it
Get jiggy
Get crunked up
Percolate anything you want to call it
Oscillate you hip and don’t take pity
Me want fi see you get live ‘pon the riddim when me ride
And me lyrics a provide electricity
Gal nobody can tell you nuttin’
Can you done know your destiny

Yo sexy ladies want par with us
In a the car with us
Them nah war with us
In a the club them want flex with us
To get next to us
Them nah vex with us
From the day me born jah ignite me flame gal a call me name and its me fame
Its all good girl turn me on
‘Til a early morn’
Let’s get it on
Let’s get it on ‘til a early morning
Girl it’s all good just turn me on

RAHH. Sean Paul rocks my ass.

i think its 8:27 PM now

Tuesday, February 10, 2004

i would be devastated but i would still want to be with you.. i mean, its you...

i think i just went and screw it all up huh.

i think its 6:41 PM now

Sunday, February 08, 2004

so glad you asked. :) so glad.

i'm the one who wants to be with you
deep inside i hope you feel it too
waited on a line of greens and blues
just to be the next to be with you !

moony! here's to our favourite song.

THIS time of the year.. you not being here, right here with me, on the same tiny island, is crushing me more than i can take.

i think its 10:42 PM now

Saturday, February 07, 2004

and then you ask me, "do you feel alright?"
and i say, "yes, i feel wonderful tonight."

i think its 11:47 PM now

i think the nicest song i ever, ever heard is Micheal Jackson's Black or White. :)

had physics CT today. paper was horrid, i was godamnit hungry, and my phone was vibrating constantly. i was sitting at the last row and the teacher couldnt see me. so i started replying everyone.. until i almost forgot i was having a test lah! doesnt make any difference anyway. all dont know how to do.. :|

AND I STILL DONT HAVE MY SAT SCORE YET !!!!!!!!!!!!
am incredibly pissed. long story, dont wanna go thru my agony again. but UGHHH.
better anyway. not really keen on knowing my score. -BIG sigh.

went suntec with van, ting, nat, cheese and peanuts today..
and on bus 36 there, something hilarious happened.
see, we were all seated but the bus was so packed so we were sitting on the green seats. nothing much for a while.. was watching mobile when van suddenly declared, "I dont want to sit here anymore. I'm standing up."
given that she's incredibly weird and eccentric and all, i would normally understand. but SEE! this MAD woman beside her on the bus pulled her hair for no rhyme or reason!! the woman was originally digging for smth in her backpack when she just PULLED VAN'S HAIR!! HAHAHA! okay, me ting and moony were so cracked up.
andandand before that, while van was talking to moony, that lady tapped moony on her shoulder and made an action with her fingers that they were talking to much and loudly. JESUS. poor van. exposed to bullies not only in sch[us] and also outside! -guffaws.

OH. we caught GOTHIKA. okay, not technically because 5 sixths of the time van ting and myself were huddled together, eyes closed, ears shut. the guys were so indifferent to it ! it was a horrible, horrible show. i am sleeping with my mom tonight, i swear. in fact, im kinda freaked out right now.. -looks around-
so ting hid her face in the popcorn, and i was talking to van about stuffs to keep our mind off that show.. talked bout chem test.. and both of us kept asking each other, "are you watching? are you watching?" silly timid pigs, we are. and other mindless stuffs. was quite funneeh actually. HA. :)

my throat's scratchy like hell! and im coughing non-stop. sneezing. the whole bout of "FISH FLU". haha!

you should just get your ass out of there right now. GAH.

i think its 11:18 PM now

Tuesday, February 03, 2004

i think im seriously in love with 80s songs. you know back then when the tuning technology wasnt that good yet? and the sound comes out all echo-ish and distant? anytime better the in-yer-face pop music now. hmm.
van, moony & ting! ugh. if it werent for you guys, i would be hanging myself every morning before i go to sch already. you guys took "school" to a whole new level.
esp moony, we crack each other up with jokes bout pbp!!
remember today when we were running along the track? i did a rather crude rendition of the way van runs!? HAHAHA.
*ilu!

had Thai sharksfin and abalone today.. UGH! no matter how much people claim it to be heavenly.. i still think its incredibly yucky!

i think its 10:33 PM now

Monday, February 02, 2004

i'm starting to doubt my purpose of having a blog. i dont even know if its considered one. i mean, what are you supposed to blog about? definitely not to slew insults at people, or write outrageous insinuations, as in the many cases i have witnessed.. HA! -shakes head. its supposed to be an outlet, [a great one at that: the World Wide Web] for people to express their thoughts, no?

if what you said was delibrately meant to get something out of me, then i think you've achieved your goal.

To You.
you know who you are. i know you're reading this. what is your point really? you're so aloof and cool on the outside, its driving me nuts. why? why? WHY!? for the sake of dear sweet lord Jesus. DONT do that okay? you're making yourself look more pathetikk than you already are. and dont go rolling your eyes on me. you have to admit there's some seriousness behind that facade you're putting up. i dont even know you anymore! we both know the true reason behind that, but im not gonna leave an explicit message for you here. but for whatever ive done, i'm SORRY. you have no idea how much. okay? if i could turn back time, i would undo everything to make it all go away. but i cant. it was a total misjudegment on both our parts. do not attempt to "glorify" my wrongdoings just to make yourself look better. sometimes i would try to hate myself for wot i did, but im not gonna. because.. it doesnt matter anymore, does it? and i think thats what kills me the most. i dont even know why im saying this ! i dont even know if you'll listen.. but how else can i get you to see my point ?
i know you dont give a damn anymore. neither do i. but the unrealistic, dreamy part of me refuses to give up on you. no matter how much we both baulked at the idea.

i wish i could just make you turn around, turn around and see me cry

you know i'd fight for you, but how can i fight for someone who isint even there?

the purpose of my blog surfaces.

i think its 10:23 PM now

the way i feel about you, Its like i finally know what Lionel Richie has been singing about..

i think its 12:33 AM now