Sunday, November 30, 2003
"Welcome to Los Angeles International Airport. Please be seated, have perfect teeth, and weigh less than a hundred pounds. We wish you a pleasant journey ahead."
LOL.
i think its 11:26 PM now
the excitement of my going to USA tml has not seeped into my veins. [yet]
maybe the preparations left me in the eye of the tornado, with no time to think of anything else.
my room's a mess, literally as if a tornado's swept right thru it. my Polo luggage's brimming with Calvin Klein undies [yes! new ones!], turtlenecks, leggings, lip balm, moisturisers, mags, aand the new book i bought from Border's today !
being the true singaporean that my mom is [though she furiously protests against it], we've got a medicine box, teeming with panadols, antibiotics, airsick pills, any medicine we could find at home, and last but not least, bottled Evian mineral water. [we might get allergic to the water there, she reasons] whatever happened to chocolate milkshakes?!
oh well. old habits die hard.
So kiss me and smile for me,
Tell me that you'll wait for me,
Hold me like you'll never let me go.
'Cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again
Oh Baby, I hate to go..
they should stop making songs like that. they make me so fucking sad.
i think its 10:49 PM now
Saturday, November 29, 2003
met up with the 2 silly twits today ! -big grin- i miss them like hell already ?
listening to Britney makes me feel like cheesy shite.
i'm like the drug, you keep coming back for more.
i think its 11:41 PM now
Friday, November 28, 2003
Sugarbabes' Hole in the Head is, well, stuck in my head ! for all the wrong reasons. GAH.
meetin hy darn early tml to go town to get my woolly cap! which, she keeps insisting that i really shouldnt need. i'm going skiing so too bad for you. -shrugs-
dad gave me a lift to cchs today to pick up my cheque. :) am a happy twit!
can i say it one more time? 3 more days !! i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait -chants.
i really AM a compulsive buyer. advertising companies would love me dearly. heard this catchy poprock tune by Human Nature in the music store today. one moment i was humming to it and the next! i was at the cashier's ka-ching up the register. oh, did i mention i bought a video too? FRIENDS, yeah, no candy for guessing it right.
i applaud your inaugural sense of time. clothes on the floor lay forgotten, just the way you want it to be. monochrome pictures of us, i've thrown away, lit them up in flames, just to keep those aches in a tiny sacred box. this manifestation of my life and everything else that's gotta do with it has taken the coveted backseat. i hope you're happy now.
i think its 10:49 PM now
Thursday, November 27, 2003
RESOLUTIONS before i head to LA :
-lose weight [because all i'd be eating are burger and fries and coke]
-buy a wooly cap, preferably from Quiksilver, Billabong or Roxy
-some turtlenecks too
-see hippo african & egyptian one more time
-dig out all my winter clothing, and mittens. [okay, gloves]
-watch Brother Bear [and hope Kill Bill has a PG rating in US]
-borrow a discman ! [mine's exteremly battery-eating] from yy, i hope.
-lose more weight.
-burn all the songs on my playlist so that i can listen on those longg car rides
-go for my facial [yikes]
-pierce my other ear.
-kiss Heather goodbye
-return all my videos
-tell Chandler,Rachel,Joey,Monica,Phoebe and Ross i'll miss them.
-try to keep myself sane and NOT say the above line ever again.
-see you more.
okay long list there. but i'm on my way thru some. see 5th note-to-self.
i should really stop my compulsive video-borrowing. i've spent a horrifying[gasp!] 200 bucks on them already.
Heather is so cute heather is so cute heather is so cute -skips around-
i've got one nerve left and you're ON IT !!
so fcuking irritating. sod off, will you?
although, of course, if you're that needy and pathe-e-tic. grrr.
i think its 11:39 PM now
bunch of nutheads, they are. went all the way to PS just to eat Cafe Cartel?
then spent the whole day deciding where to go.
i got my way in the end. :)
so to ECP to cycle ! for almost 3 hrs! my *in-betweens* are aching..
i'm officially late. and hungry. gonna have lunch with Ruth!
hmm. who's says Fish and Company instead of Fish & Co.?
i think its 12:14 PM now
Tuesday, November 25, 2003
i've never. felt. more. alone.
pbp's already in Nepal !! whyyyyyyy.
i think its 11:23 PM now
-chews brains-
even though it seems like i have everything
but i dont wanna be lonely fool
i can make believe i have everything
but i cant pretend that i dont see
that without you
my life is incomplete ...
i think its 11:20 PM now
Monday, November 24, 2003
in exactly 1 weeks' time, i'd be on the plane to LA !!! SQ 30 departs at 17:20 sharp. Man, that sounded GOOD.
they left the planning of the itinerary to me. just like every year. [my mum hates tours, claim they make you wake up at 5 every morning] 'cept that i usually flop at it. but its good fun, browsing the web endlessly, honing for great Bed & Breakfasts [gorgeous Inns], the sights, what-nots.
we'd be flying a domestic flight, NORTHWEST AIRLINES [thats the plane that crashed in 9/11 right? -shrugs-] to Arizona immediately, i hope.
was surfing the net and here's what i've got : "There's no place on earth quite like the Grand Canyon State. It's not just our landscapes, which take in tall mountain ranges, swift rivers, grasslands, sand dunes, and cactus forests. It's not just our storied past, which reaches back thousands of years. It's not just our people, a vibrant blend of cultures and traditions. It's all these things, and the way they come together, that make a visit to Arizona a truly unforgettable experience."
thats what i love about America. the huge supermarket [and i mean, HUGE -spreads arms wide open-] tucked away in a neat corner, the crawling highways, always accompanied by cheap motels and neon diners.
Arizona. hmm. even saying it makes ugly lips beautiful..
the Southwestern cuisine, cowboys and boots, Hispanic and Mexican culture. this epitomizes the Old West and everything else i've ever dreamed about.
i guess this just comes down to love ? and guilt. definitely guilt.
i think its 8:40 PM now
Sunday, November 23, 2003
some blind bat complained that my font is too small for the puny eyes. so, there.
was at Orchard with mom and her China clients today. like, my face whooosh down the drain? what i dimwit i am at chinese. was never proficient at the language. and never will be. even though i took higher mt. which, to the never-ending and profound amazement of everyone. esp goony.
mopped around at taka abit, bought lotsa clothes within a short span on 1 hr! cant imagine if i stayed the entire day?
my tummy's grumbling. why like that !
i think its 10:22 PM now
was at Ruth's birthday bash last night..
after we cut the cake, audrey [pinky's gf] started scooping all the cream on the Blackforest cake to a seperate plate.
i was happily stuffing myself when it hit me. like a ton of bricks..
yeah! splendid idea! a standard procedure for every birthday bash. so we schemed and plot and racked out brains. finally decided that the most subtle approach would be to "chiong for it". [read: in a quick and un-orderly fashion]
so we did and caught her by 'surprise', being the smarty-pants that she is, she was all-too-aware of it. we started smearing the cream all over her hands and face ! rach minnie and audrey ran for their bloodyy lives! while i just stood there, laughing the daylights of out myself, what with her looking so darnn santa clausy.
before i knew it, she took all the cream and spat them all over my body lah! the whole family was just standing at one corner and not-so-silently encouraging us. it was a really creamy, smelly and catty affair -- we were clawing each others brains, pulling every visible hair and.. just applying more cream like it were suntan lotion. :D
after that we just sat around and ate and ate and told one TOO many ghost stories.
had to bunk with mum after that ! was wayyy too scared out of my wits to sleep alone in my room.
just got back from Raffles Town Club for breakfast .. i mean, i thought its supposed to be like, exclusive or smth, right? hmm. funny how come its not ? anyways i'm real sleepy now. i should really stop binge eating. or rather, i should stop eating. period. i ate 4 toasts! countless baked beans, spuds, sausages.. oh god the pounds that i lost when i was terribly sick is coming back to haunt me. i cant stop thinking bout ghously stuffs, can i.
gotta go towning with my mum soon. yawns. okay Kim. your much-needed retail therapy!!
should i go clubbing tonight ?
i think its 9:50 PM now
rewind. sentosa with them ! went with ah pek for my first NEL trip!! just to get a "mountain torteese aah you!!" from him.
vball, soccer, kayaking, more vball. some really dirrrty game with everyone cheating. [ha! inside joke] moony's muffins! floating on the .. floatable thingamajig. with moony trying very unsuccessfully to get on top every now and then..
the photo above. LMAO. everyone was supposed to point at some random spot.. but the guys! they pointed at us instead! grrr.
and there's this really super chio AH-IMM. thats wot we were all looking at. hmm. [inside joke again]
the highEST point came when we were at Swensons. playing Truth or Dare, you see. grown-ups we cant be. :|
anyways. Brent got the DARE. and so we dared him to walk up and down the Swensons aisle, acting gay and waving to everybody. guess wot!? yeah, he DID IT!!!
it takes GUTS to that, really. a colossal gut, by the way. got it down on video. everyone in our table was just grimacing and sliding far far down the seat. guys, if you're reading this. BOO ! thou i was the silly one who egged him on. but kudos to Alvin who thought that one up !
i talk alot, dont i ?
i think its 12:22 PM now
Thursday, November 20, 2003
realised wot a doofus i am.
changed all the background of my portal.
and i thought the styles were so limited! -bangs head on the wall-
hmm.
mum's gonna confirm the flight to LA tml.
like, AGAIN??? okay. i know i might sound like a brat here, [okay i DO sound like a downright brat] but LA? again? 3 years in a row. at least go somewhere else? but anyways. not gonna stay there. gonna rent a car and drive northeast.
yipee-doodle-doo !! USA, here comes yr mama!!
[ just tryin to get in the mood, ya know? ]
some states i'd be going. Idaho. Montana. Texas? Nevada & Lake Tahoe.. (went with rach and them last yr!) you've probably never heard of these states before.
Like, Jovin! LOL. he spluttered, "Aaaa-Ammm-merica?"
THAT silly twit.
photos.
i think its 11:58 PM now
okay. just managed to get a breather. never really got a chance to breathe ever since 11:37 am. the time when i met jan on the mrt. like ger was also on the train ! didnt realise till we were all on the same train only at like, Bugis? talk about fate. tumble-dee.
was aud's [egyptian ahma] birthday today ! gave her a elephantine surprise, which didnt really turn out to be that after all. seee, ian led her from Dhoby Gawd all the way back to Suntec [courtesy of me] , got a mysterious phonecall from his MAID and acted un-Oscar-ish and all. plus, aud already knew smth was up when they were headed to Kenny Rogers ..
yeah! because of me lah huh! she just knew it HAD to do with me cos of the corn muffins.
yeah, see what happens when you let people in on your heart? they trample all over it. okay, no pun intended.
anyways. when she came, she really was terribly shocked. there was the lone candle on the cake, the food all displayed nicely..
it was the silly grins on our faces, really.
then i said, "okayyy, this is supposed to be the part where you cry". so she started faning herself near the eyes and we knew the tears were on. awww ?
you put your favourite food, and the greatest people in the world to you together. wot do you get! yes. the next closest thing to heaven. AND CORN MUFFINS. hawhaw.
caught Looney Tunes after that! -hums animaniacs-
twas great! and we took lotsa neo prints after..
i felt sec 1-ish all over again ! but no, really? looking at them now makes me wanna cry. humphf...!
played badminton after that . -loud sigh.
looking at DHS girls train. really drove me down memory lane huh..
the lunges. the sit ups. the drills. the strokes. the scoldings. the shoutings. the sweat. the racket.. oh god. i really miss it, dont i. guess its just.. part of my life that i dont really wanna touch anymore?yea.
you guys are, withOUT a shadow of doubt, the best in the world. about being forsaken long ago? forget i said that. ever. :)
i think its 10:41 PM now
Wednesday, November 19, 2003
okay i know i'm gonna sound like a little kid now but.. yayyy!!
gonna watch Looney Tunes tml with hippo & friends!!
okay kim, no reason to get all so excited right? -deep breaths-
went Bedok South kopitiam to eat with zhuan, moon and chun today .. HA!! of all places? considering i've been eating there ever since i was.. 11? felt weird. met Ruth at grandma's place after.. and had dinner at Gelare with mum. boy was it good or what! can i lick my lips now?
i just spent a bomb on all the DVDs again. FRIENDS, About a Boy, The Good Girl.. i just cant stop. borrowed from Siglap and now parkway. i'm having trouble keeping tabs on them already ..
and oh yeah, i did lament to them. was supposed to cook western food today for dinner so i gleefully skipped to Cold Storage to buy the necessary stuffs. so i was lugging all 4 heavy-weight spuds (potatoe), a huge bag of Lettuce, ranch dressing , Bac(on) 'n Pieces and god-knows-what-else all over the place ! ugh felt like a full-fledged ah soh. or as ah pek puts in, "Ah Mm".
did i mention i LOVE Cold Storage? one of my deepest and fondest memory was of sitting on the baby seat [yeah i was reallyy small sized then] on the trolley and my Dad would trudge me along throughout the entire store .. i would stay fascinated and be truly depressed when it was time to go home. used to look forward to those weekly affairs. . -sighs
we all have to grow up, right? righttt. okay now i really DO sound like a kiddy.
you bug me. go away ?
i think its 10:33 PM now
Tuesday, November 18, 2003
its not too late. is it ?i think its 10:40 PM now
Saturday, November 15, 2003
sometimes i wonder what it would be like if i had a brother.. or a sister. a sibling. would my dad still rub my feet for me then? would my mum go to great lengths to get everything i want? would everything in my life just fall short of perfect? with the tangible exception that they're never around, and i'm always alone at home with my maid?
i dont think you can measure such stuffs with love. because whatever they did and will do for me, i think it explicably came from their heart. food for thought.
i'll pray for you tonight.. be strong and pull thru this okay? been there a dozen times. done that a couple more. i'll be wit you no matter wot.
i think its 10:26 PM now
portal
i think its 11:27 AM now
Friday, November 14, 2003
i know if i'm truly sick when i cant remember the real names of each and every F.R.I.E.N.D.S star. diddly-do....
ok. i really shall not delve into the horrors of the past few days.
3 different clinics. one and a half day. one hospital. one jab. 16 panadols.
temperature sky-rocketed at 39.6 yesterday. just when i thought it couldnt get any worse.. slept for 2 hrs last night. !? after eating so many sedatives!?
and wots the ultimate. my mum is away. but my aunties were extremely nice and all. brought all sorts of chinese herbs and food. hmm. being an only child sure has its perks :)
Michael Buble [say bu-bleh] rocks! although i must not admit i like jazz, i really love that guy!
andandand.. i need some good smashing retail therapy!!
i dropped 2.5 kilo. to some lactose-intolerant [read: dieting] people, it might just be the next best thing to chocolate milkshakes. i can actually count how many scoops of porridge i took since 2 days ago. and i had diarrhoea. wonder where all the sh*t come from?
at your beck and calling. lies dead. white-washed tiles stained red. girl, maimed.
do i speak in fragments today?
i think its 12:19 PM now
Monday, November 10, 2003
tg. if you're reading this? thank you.
i mean, seriously. i couldnt have done it without you. i know i'm friggin weak and all. but somehow you've always been my pillar of strength without actually knowing it. your tranquility and deprecatory sense of humour about life in general never failed to lift me up. nonetheless now. [you-know-who, you-know-what] -hugs tighttt-
i think its 11:46 PM now
Sunday, November 09, 2003
Carrie Anne Moss is officially my heroine.
caught Matrix Revolutions with them today.
everyone's been telling me what a great disappointment it is and how they wave their arms in the air with great despair NEARLY halted me from going to tm to watch it. but i prevailed. and yes. Geeky as the Wachowskis' brothers may be, they invented the next coolest thing to Okley wraparound shades.
WHICH, incidently, appeared countless times in the show.
so. people out there who are totally clueless about the matrix and all its artsy-patsy. STOP thinking that the matrix's a dud!!!
i think its 11:16 PM now
its bizarre how much you can still miss a person after 30 years. it just never really goes away, does it? the love. i do hope one day i'd understand. that we all understand. till then, wavering your faith might be, dont ever give up the love .
i can wear my smile a million times a day and it still wont scrub off your stain on me.
i'm getting increasingly light-headed and imbalanced.
it scares the hell out of me. but i cant eschew the adrenaline it gives me. like i can fly. i dont care where, just as long as it brings me away from here. away from you. away from everyone else. ok. maybe i'm hoping it'd bring you along. because then would it be complete.
i just heard a song. a song which had a gazi-fucking-llion 'baby's in it.
that's just it. i'm overtly sensitive when it comes to "baby".
it's just not same when its not you.
i think its 10:48 PM now
Saturday, November 08, 2003
just came back from my uncle neo's birthday bash!!
hmm. twas fab. as usual!
except that rach suddenly stood up in the middle of the conversation and scuttered off upstairs to study. LOL!
she's freaking out i guess. wot with 'A's on monday..
good luck you go gurl!!
took plenty of spastic photos. courtesy of ruth ! [she supplied the spastic faces]
cant wait for tml !! -shrieks-
the entireee fam has yoga on sunday mornings
now that it's ended, we're gonna go beeeaccch!
i think i'm way too hyped up now.
if you'd notice, i've got enough exclaimation marks and an overload of adrenaline to last me a lifetime.
k, gonna go down to get milk..
its silly. and its abnormal. i cant wipe that sick grin off my face.
i think its 11:44 PM now
Friday, November 07, 2003
yay!! is it over or is it over? goody-gum-drops.
went to meet yy after the paper.. and we ravished the entire Genki Sushi !
i declare: i LOVE green tea ice cream. totally. wonderfully. in love.
then got my lazy bones to see my dahling..
ok i'm expected over at ruth's like NOW.
i think its 7:46 PM now
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
we held hands and laughed
then we jumped in the water
off the jetty we'd fly
as the sun got hotter
we were any age
floating thru space
happy for once in the human race
on this sweet sunday
and into monday
your arms wraped around me
where my love has found me, has finally found me..
but am i really free?
if i could read your mind
i hope i'd find
the same love i have in mine
if i could go back in time
i'd try to find you
and make up for all this wasted time
like a broken record
i stay protected from promises, from disappointments
i wanna hear your dreams
wanna drift away, wanna break you in
oh i wanna stay, stay in heaven..
and see my life finally begin
will we be together. oh forever?
darling please let me in
i think its 10:14 PM now
Tuesday, November 04, 2003
GERALDINE QINGREN!! happy birthday!!
just when i thought i couldnt love YOU more. :)
was friggin tired. but still managed to drag my juicy arse(ha-bloody-ha)
to bugis fish and co.
didnt want to really. but the look on ger's face.
definitelyyyy worth it. yup. a hundred times over.
pls let this friday be over soon?
i think its 9:59 PM now
Saturday, November 01, 2003
suddenly all i wanna do is to buy an old-fashioned camera and.. snap away.
constantly, i wade thru my source of existence, searching for something that would mean nothing.
a desolated telephone line, half-eaten milk cartons, ants at work.
circumstances made me an angst-ridden piece of garb that i dont find things remotely funny anymore. ayyyyy.
you once said: "the only way for me to hold your hand is to let go."
i bit my lip, forcing back the tears.
why did i ever believe you?
was with yy today.
she made everything seem so pure and undulated..
being with her drove away the momentary doubts i had about life in general.
she views life the way a 6-year-old child would.
i which i had her optimism sometimes.
when i was a little girl, i craved solitude. but hated the lonliness.
one day, according to an account from my dad,
me: can i go outside and play with you? can i? can i?
cousin pinky: go ask for permission first.
with grim determination, i strode purposefully over to my dad and asked with all the dignity i can muster:
me: permission. [with this, i stuck my then-chubby arms out, all the while thinking permission is a "THING".]
now, it has become a still and permanent inside joke of the family.
i dont like that i talk too much.
i think its 9:40 PM now
Kim