Sunday, August 31, 2003

i took out your letters to read today.
and read, re-read, again and again.
Just what is it about those austere letters
that always seem to calm me down,
rebuild my mood
and at the same time plunge me into a blinding mix of memories?

i dont have an answer to the above question.
and neither to those asking why i walked away.

Silently, i prayed you'd hear me.
that you knew why i'm doing what i'm doing
that i'm sorry
that somehow.. deep inside,
you'd know there's no one else for me.

i think its 12:01 AM now

Saturday, August 30, 2003

really. how do you say goodbye?
went to airport to send my maid off today. i know i shouldnt be so emotionally attached to her but.. the house seems so empty and void without her.
normally at nights she'd make stuffs for me to eat. Or drink.
Corn bread. muffins. strawberries with sugar. Milo.
and life's become so comfortable with her even when my mum's overseas.
Oh god. my new maid's coming next week.
which means, quoting directly from marm, "wash every plate you eat in and every cup you drink out of".
dont we always take things for granted.
yes. spoilt brat. you bet.
i miss her already.

i think its 11:51 PM now

Friday, August 29, 2003

Just woke up, and wolfed down one banana too many.
What. A. Day. Yesterday.
Had the most exhilarating but thoroughly enjoying day.
Though the lectures and tutorials were not extremely fun, to say the least,
but hanging out with them, certainly cheered me up a whole LOT.
Much love to you guys, esp vanessa pocky stix, un- meiyue, chun opera singer, nat, xiuting, all who have been nothing but nice.
Qingyao, cheers to the funniest ah-pek on this planet. Thank you. :)

Lost my sense of time, and everything around me started to be a whirlwind of events.
Tutorials, chem, more chem, a whole 5 periods! Break, food, yien's cookies!
But the whole time, the thought of going to training later pulled me thru.
Training was.. gawd, i miss badminton like hell.
Training with macy from SBA certainly applied the much-needed pressure!
After training, had to RUSH, which is an understatement, to Plaza Singapura to catch S.W.A.T wit them.
Was trembling with hunger! And i had to let my last bit of sausage, doused with mustard and ketchup, to roll down the entire length of my uniform.
-faints- Reeked of leaking sewage pipes after that. ughh.
Busy, whacked out, but gorgeous.
At least it helped me get my mind off you.
For a while.

i think its 11:13 AM now